Dusk, i realized then is just an illusion, because the sun is either above the horizon or below it. and that means that day and night are linked in a way few things are; there cannot be one without the other, yet they cannot exist at the same time. how would it feel, i remember wondering, to be always together, yet forever apart?

that was noah..beautiful quote from The Notebook by nicholas sparks.

railway track!

man i'm bushed! but what an evening! chris josh and i went down to the railway tracks today to take photosss it's the m'sian one tt we're actually not supposed to enter. it was beeeaaauuutifuuul!! a little out of this world.. tt's all i can manage hahahh i had a lot of nice thoughts down there but they're kinda muddled up in my head. u've gotta see it for urself to know what i mean.. mm and tt's if u like the place (plus all the funny insects) :)

first time i tried my hands at proper photography! it's SURPRISINGLY interesting! i'd have enjoyed it 3498584 times better if i hadn't needed the toilet and was in the proper attire like shoes and long pants. i was in my school skirt and slippers!! yeap but definately a good first time i wouldnt mind trying my hands at it again :D

strangers in harmony

on the train, an indian couple sat beside a chinese family and the little girl was sitting beside the couple. and the indian lady kept smiling at the little girl and even cupped her cheeks n commenting to her husband how adorable she is (my guess) hahhah okae. hee anw the little girl grinned back at her and her mom smiled at the lady too! u noe how our govt's so proud bout our different races being able to live together in harmony. but it's true! and it's a very warm feeling. and not to mention they were strangers. :)

oh mannnn i'm so sad! i lost all the essays i wrote when i was in sec 4 :( those were my favourites and my best ones. though i may have soft copies of them, they wont have ms ong's comments and notes and smiley faces. have been searching for them the whole morning. aaahhhhh they're so precious n they're gone.... oh k i didnt go to sch today again! haahah yest cos of my throat and today cos i woke up late i forgot to on my alarm. my neighbour's over right now! she brought some funny yam pudding made taiwanese style with all the herbal stuffs inside. ahahah i tried a bit out of politeness :S didnt taste good. i dont like herbal foods cept herbal chicken :D
ohdear please pray i'll find my essays... im quite upset over it:(

swirling

my life is kinda in a swirl now.. my mind cant seem to be focused. cos there are so many things i want to care about and do, so many things sweeping me away from my usual world, so many things inspiring me, so many things distracting me. and then i try to do all of them, neglecting the most pressing thing (u noe the usual sch work) and it feels ugh cos i have to face the music and shoulder the burden of unfinished work. so instead of an upward swirl, it's a downward swirl. so i should try to reverse its direction yes?

jus now while pushing myself through the prac crit, i had a sudden REAL fear of the A levels. i dont wanna sit for it and run away somehow. heh it's times like these i feel like i want to get married right away and have children and take care of a family and that's it! right now i seriously dont mind time flying ahead hahah but ah my marriage had better be good else i'd rather stay the way it is now heh.

ohyes watch more shows and vcds! but good ones. they're the best way to get educated really!

i learnt one lesson today. never ever try surviving on a few hours of sleep cos it's a waste of your day! i went arnd like some zombie in a daze and learnt nothing felt nothing enjoyed nothing : bleagh

=D!!!!!!!!!! ----> hahah okay that says it all! nites zzzzzZZZ!

i jus wanna get it off my chest! it ruined my otherwise perfect friday so i was sooo freakin annoyed!u see we're organizing this steamboat for the elderly on monday and cos people in the group keep backin in and out, the man in charge wants all of us to go down on sunday for a meeting to confirm our attendance on monday. if we have too little people on sunday, he'll kick our group out and cancel out on us. after all those planning! BUT i've got my own things! this project is certainly not at the top of my priority list. i have a family and parents to account to! sunday's the last day i get to spend with my dad before he goes off to m'sia n i wont see him for damn long! and we're have our own reunion dinner before dad goes off and i've already promised my mom i'll come home in the afternoon to make her pineapple tarts!!! PLUS my dad is already annoyed at me for goin out all the time every weekend. and im not goin to waste my time travelling up and down just to show my face! BUT then again, i dont want to cause my entire group to get kicked out! argh. it's not like im not goin to turn up on monday rite. i FULLY intend to turn up! SO ANNOYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tsk.

ugh im still in a bad mood. but i just gotta say i was really really REALLY so happy this evening cos my friend has stopped smoking!!! my friends n i we have been praying for him and i think God's heard us and decided to help! =D hahahh i felt like some fairy's just granted me a wish or something.

i watched Billy Elliot this afternoon! what a treat! =)