i think the main point of my urban geog module is... that the poor are always and will always be marginalized. hahah i really think this is all i learnt from my module. whatever topic whatever reading, i juuuust can pick this issue out.
it's sad, but it's reality man in our capitalist world. but then again right, think about the world that the rich indulge in.. it's just a fantasy and an imagined world the marketeers throw up to hoax their moolah out. my urban retail readings got me thinkin.. everything that people generally live in and live for today are created by other people. how pathetic is that.. it's really not easy resisting being bought into that kind of fantasy.
i honestly find a lot more meaning in living for a great God.

this is a little crazy it's two weeks to finals and i've barely begun my preparations! still into assignments and projects that have yet to be finished!! and the weird part is.. im not really panicking.

i've jus applied for a change of faculty from bizad to arts =) i can't wait for next sem to come!! lookin forward to exploring the E modules! so many people are telling me this wasnt really a gd decision cos a general arts degree is no where nearly as marketable as a bizad degree and tt itself is already a very general degree. but university is our once in a lifetime chance, dont you want to thoroughly enjoy it? if we're passionate about what we're studying, it'll make aceing university so much more easier! the thought of going through the rest of my bizad mods and then majoring in something that is pretty interesting but not as exciting as what i'd like to do isnt' appealing:( and above all, the most important thing is that i know this is my calling and i'm comfortable and at peace with my decision. what God has installed for me, i know it will be along this path. as pastor told me, take it a step at a time.. why be so impatient and path out my future for myself? besides, i know that my personality is not suited for the finance sector or the corporate world, and i'd like to venture into fields where i get to deal with children.

oyea i met a friend of a friend this afternoon who is a social work fresh graudate. he just applied for a job as prison counsellor! cool.. anw we were talkin about the fields of research and the modules that were being explored and taught in nus.. and i asked about the kids, and he said there's actually pretty little concentration on it in nus cos most of e lecturers here specialize in other fields and people are usually interested in youths and teenagers rather than children!

the most amazing part was my mom.. she actually gave me the go ahead! i never knew she had so much faith in me that i knew what i was doing! i really thought she was going to insist that i stay in bizad. gosh.. God's miracle. hahah. i was really unbelievably touched.. it means so much to me! although my dad was pretty disappointed, i know that if i work hard to do well, i'll show him the wisdom of God's guidance, and tt being financially well off isnt the most important in life.

i'm glad that i took this step and did something about the change tt i felt i should make. it's very different from the person i usually am.. i'd have sucked it in and jus live with it, and i thank God for the courage He gave me cos the fear of disappointing my parents and regretting this decision was so real and big despite my desire and prayers. and now i see why He closed the doors of smu on me. i wouldnt have had this option if He hadn't!