byebye mt sinai

=)going to st paul's tmr morning! every week is so eventful i thought it was a month since i last went there! hmm well this has been a great last week in mt sinai! shall miss it loads, no doubt. but hehe as layming told me, it's great our batch gets to experience the best of both campuses! hahaha yep!! and after she said that, i wondered why in the world i was so sad! she said that it's been a great year at mt sinai and now we can look forward to life in the new campus! hahhahha tt's the way! -grin-

thursday night nana n i camped over in sch!! hahhah it was soooo retarded n sooooo fun! retarded coz we were like two little idiots lugging slping bags she borrowed frm the faction room hahhahh. it was the MOST exciting night in school ever!! we met the policemen wOOtz~~!! and they were both so nice!! i'm SO glad we didnt chicken out in the end! BLEAGH to all those who thought we'd be humji and decide to go home!!!

friday morning was extremely wonderful! haahahh despite me falling ill n having merely 2hrs of bad sleep:) the morning bath in sch at 6.30 was so refreshing coz it was sooooooo cold! the moment i on the tap i had goosebumps everywhere mwahah! and i felt really damn good the whole morning! was feeling down later coz the thought of never having lessons in mt sinai ever made me sad. hee well went over to my cousins' in the evening n stayed over there for the night:) n i felt so much better. i love slping on the sofa there coz when i look up n out of the window, i feel like i'm in heaven=) the view frm up there's marvellous! hmm and this morning, my aunt insisted my face was dirty forced 4294982374million facials on me and offered to uh shape my eyebrows hahhaha! well, it was damn painful but yea guess it looks neater now:) but my face feels funny and my brows are so painful im having a headache! hahhahahah=) uh wanyi hurry end ur Os leh we intend to go out for a midnight movie! (to celebrate end of ur Os AND AHEMAHEM MY BIRTHDAY!!!) hahhahah!

hey rach if u're reading this i'm really sorry bout not setting my priorities right n neglecting my health at the expense of training. *promise i'll put in my best effort.

names!

hahha everything really happens for a reason.

hee i dunno what i'm thinkin mann im going silly. hahah or maybe the thought happened for a reason too!! hhahah should i sit on it or should it do something abt it????

i was thinking about names on my way home, and i thought n realized somehow the meaning of people's names are part of their personality. well, it applies to QUITE a number of my friends, AND MYSELF! hahhaah:) my name means happy n peaceful=) perfect name! hahhah i wonder why i was so ashamed of it last time, but i think most kids shld have once been ashamed of their names? especially if it werent some exotic name. hahhhaa anyway back to my point, i think my name is an exact reflection of what i want in my life! and given what i know of myself, i am happy when i am peaceful, as in literally peaceful. i dont like crowds, i dont like being trapped in the middle of people chattering n talking i will get groggy, i know a good example! i cannot step into heeren. the moment i step in i get dizzy n a headache!! yep! so i thought maybe i am actually a quiet girl! haha so are you what everybody calls u?

God's Grace

The will of God will never take you,
where the grace of God cannot keep you,
hwere the arms of God cannot support you,
where the riches of God cannot supply your needs,
where the power of God cannot endow you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the Spirit of God cannot work through you,
where the wisdom of God cannot teach you,
where the army of God cannot protect you,
where the hands of God cannot mould you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the love of God cannot enfold you,
where the mercies of God cannot sustain you,
where the peace of God cannot calm your fears,
where the authority of God cannot overrule for you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears,
where the Word of God cannot feed you,
where the miracles of God cannot be done for you,
where the omnipresence of God cannot find you.

Everything happens for a purpose.

We may not see the wisdom of it all now,
but trust and believe in the Lord
that everything is for the best.



-author unknown

the pastor's wife shared this poem during last sunday's service:) it means a lot to me.

=) i had a very wonderful day today!! met up with xiaoling in the afternoon~ hehehehe didnt get to catch a movie in the end.....but there're always THE VCDS!!!!! to save the day!! hahhahaha:):) we watched HERO and The Chicken Rice War! Hero was damn good. i loved all the colours and the cheorography. and i'm in love with chinese culture, it's too rich!
late morning at st paul's was great=) everyone there is sooo friendly! hahahah and i cant believe it was my first time playing a proper beat(albeit a super short one) on the drum set!! yep i really love the place=)

hahhah my mom and i were supposed to bake scones together tonight. but hahahahhaha she ended up doing most of it!! i helped by sampling to see if they were yummy enough! hahahhaha bum man me. coz i came home so late she couldnt wait so she just started without me:( heh

went for a Youth Challenge meeting today. i had a horrible headache and the meeting lasted SO LONG n the guy talked SO MUCH i was tired after 2 hrs. but i MUST SAY he's a really amazing man and he's so well experienced and connected! hahhahaha and HE'S DAMN FUNNY!!!!
hmm.. i really loved the East Timor video SO MUCH coz that was exactly what i've been DREAMING to do all the time!

oh n i must mention too that i was SO GLAD he did bring up the thing bout CIP being so dumb. haha k that wasn't the way he put it, but yea that's how i feel it is. i really dont like the way people help out of self interest, which is the wrong value that CIP promotes. the metro CIP prog in rj is a classic example. i overheard comments all over the place like, "hey let's do it! so damn easy to get points la! juz stand there n can slack also!" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh. i think it's just so saddening. i dont think cip's entirely bad coz those in need DO benefit anyway, they get donations and the elderly do get company too when students do their cip. just that most of it wasnt a sincere effort. i feel EXTREMELY uneasy when i have to ask for CIP points after providing my service. i just dont think it's right and though i know that i did enjoy myself so much and i lend a helping hand with my heart, i still feel self-centered. but the thing is, i need the points coz the system requires it =(
so ive decided im going to work hard at afua to promote the arts and get all my cip points from there. and other than that, i'm not getting any points coz it's really against what i believe. yea i hope everyone will give, care, and share from our hearts when we help others coz that's the spirit!!:)

beezieeefeezzieeee

heh actually i dont feel like using the comp at all, but i just dont feel like doing anything else at the moment:)

the week has been extremely hectic.. right from the moment i drag myself out of bed. notice i'm still DRAGGING myself out of bed? i still dont see anything THAT worthwhile sacrificing my beauty sleep for. i remembered i said that i shld learn to wake up in the morning and feel good about it HAHAH but noooo, not yet!!

this is the kinda week that is so packed and full of different activities that monday seemed like a month ago.

training has resumed n it's takin it's toll on my poor little muscles!! hahhah it's been aching since wednesday night. i had to think twice before turning on my side while sleeping:) mwahaha at least i'm feeling healthier now! oh and comp's coming up soon in less than a month's time!! hahah pretty exciting! coach told us to watch our diet. heh i've never done this kinda thing, like preparing so seriously for a competition that i actually have to WATCH MY DIET! hahahah but it sounds damn fun~ and i seriously have to start using some brains on the field...... heheheh

kz right now i just want OP to be over FASTFASTFAST! i'm glad that our grp's doing it SIX days earlier than our originally assigned date! blessing in disguise!! and i hope i wont freak out presenting in front of a sea of foreign faces!!!

n oh dear the something is back to bug me againnnnnnnn!!!!!! FREAK!!!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

praise the Lord!

i ALWAYS believe that when something bad happens, something good will follow and it's just been proven true time after time!! and i juz wanna say that He really listens to our prayers and He's always there for us, and as long as we have faith in Him, He'll always be there to guide us :) i cant be more grateful for that and a BEEEG thank you to all my friends out there who kept me in their prayers too!! =)

hm. can u imagine all the JC students in Singapore die. that's abt the number of cats n dogs that got put down in a year on this puny island.

i wouldnt have much bothered about the bloody F on my maths paper, cept that i think mrs kong is super disappointed and i wouldnt be surprised if she's given up hope in me passing altogether. alright, to be honest, i'm pretty disappointed myself. thought i could pull off at least an E. but anw yeah. i juz dun want to see mrs kong. i feel really quite ashamed of myself this time. guess i'd have to retake the paper, but i do welcome it as a chance for me to redeem myself for myself.

feeling really sucky nowww.. i find it very hard to believe a failure has affected me this much. it was never this way. i had never bothered. looks like things have changed.. owell.

that night lying at the bottom bunk of beck's bed after finishing Cinderella Story, i thought of how important self-respect means to me. i'd always thought i had it, but to think of it, my tolerance level is pretty high. no, VERY high, that i sometimes neglect my pride. hm others think it's a good thing being a nice girl, being able to forgive easily.. yeah, but gradually i find myself growing smaller n smaller each time i just let things be, convinced that they are the ones losing out, no point wasting my energy, i forgive, and not stand up and fight for myself. i've had enough. it is high time for my temper to get hotter.

it was so beautiful, so profound, so simple, so true it was like a dream. i felt sifted and stirred. something in me has changed, i dont know how, but i think it is a beautiful change. i dont want to say too much coz i'd spoil its beauty.

it was two well spent hours this afternoon at st paul's. i dont understand something that happened. but i guess i know the reason:)

little miss caroline

hahhah let me tell u bout the tuition today! by far, this afternoon was the BESTBESTBESTBESTBEST MOST PRODUCTIVE session ever!!!!! i have NEVER ever in my life seen her more focused than today!!! hahhah -miracle of the whiteboard- she looooooooves the whiteboard so much! and she wanted to write EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING on it! hahahahaaahah!!! and she can actually solve almost all the qns without much of my help when she is focused! hehe thus next week, im bringing my brown whiteboard marker:) instead of the usual boring blueblackredpurple. hahahhah ooooooo and HAHAHAHHAHHAH i found out something!!!
caroline: -writing on the board- "i love lee..." -looks at me-
xintian: -thought she was going to write my name- *secretly happy!*
caroline: -continues writing- "Tu Yen" "Uncle Lee" -grins at me-
xintian: huh? who's that?
caroline: a boy! i always call him Uncle Lee
xintian: OOOOOOOOO *raises eyebrows* u like him??????
caroline: -nods- but i dunno if he likes me!!
xintian: HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA!!! -ruffles her hair- is he handsome??
caroline: -nods- guess when i talk to him?
xintian: he's ur classmate?
caroline: no! he's in 4.3 i'm in 4.2! we're in the same chinese class -BIG BEEEEEEEG GRIN-
hahahhahaha oh my!!! so cute!!!! how come i dont remember myself having any crushes when i was 10...............
ohh!! and i learnt something today! there was a question that asked how many fifths are there in 3 wholes. so i drew three circles on the board but i had a VERY DIFFICULT time trying to split it into five equal parts. HAH i embarrassingly drew four parts w/o realizing..!! hee and she told me to just write a BIG huo(fire) in the circle and tadah!!!

i feel so much more spirited now! and i can focus at task better these days. like previously i was very dazed when i gave tuition and after a while i get bored n tired myself. but hell no today! i was 100% alert!! it must be the breathing space i have now that exams are over! and im not concerned bout the results coz what's done's done! hmmm im looking forward to tmr morning and afternoon! =D time to meet friends i haven't seen in a long while and im gonna be spending exclusive time with God! hahhah yay kz. oh i still have a gp essay to complete tonight HAHAHAHAHAH shan't feel grouchy bout it:)

oh and yesterday's farewell assembly wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be! i thoroughly enjoyed watching Friends in the netball court with all my friends! hahahahha! it was so lovely with a crowd of people gathered together laughing n enjoying the sitcom that was projected onto the wall with the speakers blaring n feasting on KFC. SHEESH i wonder why i never ever bothered to watch Friends my entire life! it's so funnieeeeeeee!!!!! argh. regret!!!!!!

hees everyone have a nice day till later~

bad girl

ive been in a freakin bad bad mood since last night. so bad that i couldnt stand myself. last night i went to bed pretty late coz i was too angry to fall asleep. and this morning i woke up to my alarm STILL angry and pissed off i threw the clock frm my bed to my desk, thankfully it's not spoilt. HAH i dunno why. so i went back to bed and slept over my bad mood till afternoon. i feel so much better. but ah im damn bad. i just spoilt my entire day's plans. wanted to go for the touch rug game in the morning, and then go down to World Vision. but neither happened. just slept.

anw hahah believe it or not i had STRAIGHT HAIR for a day!!!!! coz i went to mich's aunt's hair salon and had my hair trimmed. the only good thing that came out if it was that i got to get the experience of having a straight crop on my head for half a day. other than that i was not-happy bout it. coz i dont feel any different nor lighter and my pony tail's still AS BUSHY. quite irritated with myself coz i shld've just requested for a change of hairdresser or simply decline the haircut. COZ the lady who was assigned to cut my hair is obviously new to the line and she had near zero confidence in handling my unique hair. she kept whispering to mich's aunt in cantonese and made me quite annoyed. AND she just took out the iron n wanted to straighten my hair WITHOUT EVEN ASKING ME!!!!!! huh? but i just went ahead with it since it's no harm trying. anw i think the iron damaged my hair a little. yeah so im going for another trim soon...ARGH.

and on my way home i bumped into a FREAKING RUDE worker carrying a plank into the shopping mall doing some setting up for the next day. i was deep in thought and didn't hear him when he asked me to look out and almost bumped into him. he SHOUTED at me like i was some useless crap. WTH!!!!!!!!!! i was so angry i practically stormed all the way home. and then i came home to squabbling parents. squabbling over RUBBISH THINGS. WTH?!?! and it made me even more pissed off after a tiring day, a disappointing haircut, and a bloody rude worker.

on a lighter note i enjoyed Guns n Talks and My Sassy Girl at mich's house yesterday =D hee damn funny shows. and i accompanied mich to sajc to return her friend's file:) so i got to see my sajc friends=D

kz goin off to school very soon for the farewell assembly and tonight im gonna feast on vcds again mwahahahaha deprived xintian. till later~

somethings i learnt from my population geog:

the cost of fertilizing US golf courses for a year is enough to feed an entire african nation for a year!!
AND it costs 7 million to film a stunt in a movie, enough to educated 77 MILLION africans on AIDS awareness!!
a pretty ridiculous world we live in isnt it?!?

i like studying pop geog:) coz it's relatively simpler compared to other human geog topics, or geog topics for the matter. it seems like the world's trying to find its balance somewhere. or maybe it's like water finding the lowest point.

i was having an internal debate between studying economics geog and urban geography. ive decided to go for urban geog since it seems to give a more opitimistic feeling. HAHA we shall see...

im very much into pastel art now! especially after a three hour session yesterday experimenting with colours!! i was TREMENDOUSLY INSPIRED by an artbook i dug out from the shelf yesterday afternn. the paintings and demos in there looked soooooo beautiful yet simple and easy-looking enough. HAH. so i decided to try them out!! wellll turned out most of my watercolour tubes have run out of paint so too bad i had to make do with the ones u do with crayons:) and it was SO MUCH FUN!!!! though i must admit trying to get the desired effects wasn't easy! but in the process i churned out quite a number of interesting colour combinations that i had never thought of using before! and it's pretty amazing how EVERY colour combination reflects a different mood! heeheeeeeee here comes artist lee!! mwahha looks like ive got a new found hobby!! perhaps i'll like to get a scrapbook, a new set of watercolour paint and a new set of crayons:) my current set of crayons have lived with me since i was 7! i'd particularly like to try out landscape drawings:)

care n share

muzzle to muzzle: baby snow foxes playing
they're such adorable creatures :) its pretty amazing the way they change their fur colour according to the seasons. for camouflage purposes i guess:)
u know i love looking at photographs of animals captured during intimate moments, like a lioness nuzzling her cub. i find it heartwarming seeing animals, usually thought of as uncivilized scavangers, expressing love and care, n it's so human-like!

i still keep a photocopied version of a newspaper article ms ong shared with our class last yr from her journal. it was a picture of a puppy accepting a piece of bread offered by a monkey. and my teacher wrote that this favourite shot of hers touched her because it shows that even animals from different species know how to give and to receive. and the concentration in the monkey's eyes as the puppy took bread from its fingers shows the sophistication of both creatures:)it was my favourite picture last year too!

pangsai

i feel like pangsai now. i suspect my yin n yang are not balanced. hhahha thought of that in the shower earlier:) shall go with my mom to the chinese practitioner on her next trip? heeheeheee sobbbbbsssssssss............ ve been screwing up everything i do recently. the maths paper was a classic case. everything this morning was perfect, cept my left brain. ahahh shant talk abt the paper shall tell u what a perfect exam setting my class was lucky to experience=) or at least ME! hahahha the room was airconditioned with super bright sunlight streaming in from the windows and from the ceiling light! woOOT!~ AND a train toottooted by=D hehehehe

ahh sigh pangsai tian just slept her entire afternoon away. craziness i keep having crazy dreams these days. ooh but not my entire afternn went wasted=) i dug out this month's issue of the national geographic(my all time fav mag!) and dived into the world of the KEEPERS OF THE WORLD - the indigenous people living in the mountains of santa marta or smthg like that. cant remember. hehe wished i lived there. it was my childhood dream to live in a hut! hmm n i was pondering if it were better if i were born in that community instead of mine. it would be so fun to experience that kindaf life=) simple n good with great historical heritage. heh but i live in the city and i get the opportunity to learn abt several various kinds of communities=) i dont think i'd be thinking it fun if i were actually living there haahha so i've decided my city's better, and i can dream while i stare at the pictures=)

wooooot!~ hahah dad's packing his schoolbag now mwahhaahh! he's going for an option trading seminar with mom tmr n tmr n tmr n tmr. that's FOUR lonely afternoons mugging at home:( nvm no mama=no distraction =) hahahaha

ive never crammed so many formulas in a night before! this is craziness. i realized i really have short term memory. really SHORT. things like differentiation that i thought i was pro at barely a month ago, and now i cant progress after copying the question on my paper!!!!!!!! i think my left brain's underdeveloped!

jeffrey michael's songs remind me SO much of jiehui! haahahha their styles are very similar! hees i can draw similarities between them! they dont really know how to read music scores, they have very good ears, and they can just sit at the piano and start playing beautiful music they compose on the spot. hahhah coz i realized his pieces dont really have structures and i like it that way coz it's just flows n flows n flows. and it's very therapeutic=)
i discovered one pretty sad thing about myself. when i listen to music like his, all i picture in my mind's piano keys. and i try to guess which note he's playing or which chord yadayada. his songs are supposed to evoke lovely mental pictures! in fact many are. but they just dont come to me! instead, it's those stupid piano keys!!!

alrite time to go back to maths! slping early tonight=) it's a must for maths papers! =)

HALLOOOOOOOOOOOOO WORLD AGAIN!!!! im back! NOW i can see my own blog in my own computer! hees and i'm so proud of myself!!!!!!!! i actually figured how to change the picture there-----> and even the ht and width of it!!! hahahahhhhh! and i knew how to paste my tagboard frm the previous template!!!!! yay yay improvement!!

hmmmmmzzzzzz im so pleased with myself tday coz i FINALLY FINALLY got the JEFFREY MICHAEL cd!!!!!!! been hearing it play these few days on my way home and i finally decided i just had to get a copy of it! hee so i bought the cd at my favourite time of the day hahahah and i felt so pleased! yep man i've listened to them(there r 2 cds in there) and it's definately worth my moneyyyy! most of the songs are his own composition and hahha i think he doesnt know how to read musical notes. he composes his songs with his own notation form he developed since young:) oooolo-ve-lyyy!!!