hahhah my mom and i were supposed to bake scones together tonight. but hahahahhaha she ended up doing most of it!! i helped by sampling to see if they were yummy enough! hahahhaha bum man me. coz i came home so late she couldnt wait so she just started without me:( heh

went for a Youth Challenge meeting today. i had a horrible headache and the meeting lasted SO LONG n the guy talked SO MUCH i was tired after 2 hrs. but i MUST SAY he's a really amazing man and he's so well experienced and connected! hahhahaha and HE'S DAMN FUNNY!!!!
hmm.. i really loved the East Timor video SO MUCH coz that was exactly what i've been DREAMING to do all the time!

oh n i must mention too that i was SO GLAD he did bring up the thing bout CIP being so dumb. haha k that wasn't the way he put it, but yea that's how i feel it is. i really dont like the way people help out of self interest, which is the wrong value that CIP promotes. the metro CIP prog in rj is a classic example. i overheard comments all over the place like, "hey let's do it! so damn easy to get points la! juz stand there n can slack also!" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh. i think it's just so saddening. i dont think cip's entirely bad coz those in need DO benefit anyway, they get donations and the elderly do get company too when students do their cip. just that most of it wasnt a sincere effort. i feel EXTREMELY uneasy when i have to ask for CIP points after providing my service. i just dont think it's right and though i know that i did enjoy myself so much and i lend a helping hand with my heart, i still feel self-centered. but the thing is, i need the points coz the system requires it =(
so ive decided im going to work hard at afua to promote the arts and get all my cip points from there. and other than that, i'm not getting any points coz it's really against what i believe. yea i hope everyone will give, care, and share from our hearts when we help others coz that's the spirit!!:)