when will the past quit returning. each time i think it's over, things always begin to surface. when is it going to end?! freaking pest. like it's trying to rub open my nicely healed wound. but then, they say, when u've laid it all down.. what difference does it make anyway? nothing changes the steadfastness of the cross. God never disappoints when i trust him. changing my perspective is tough..but worth the try.

He picks you up each time you fall.. it's so cliche but it's so real.. literally. sometimes i can't even string a thought together to talk to him.. but he knows my heart. and every single time He's always right there. i think it's safe to trust in Jesus.. cos He'll never break my heart.

i would love to eat all the great foods in all of the world.

new year thoughts

i can't believe we're going back to school on monday. time is flying so fast it's practically teleporting itself ;(

nevertheless, it's been a wonderful break. it's one of the best holidays i've ever had. really enjoyed the month this much. most precious of all, i'm grateful that my cousins could gather for christmas and birthdays or just to catch up and make up for all the lost time this year, and also to spend time with other loved ones after such a long time apart. i'm also very happy tt good friends have come home from overseas. among many other reasons to rejoice.

it's going to be the last bittersweet semester in school. argh it's really coming to an end. despite all the stress and agony, i like uni education. so enriching.

anw most of all i wonder what God has planned. so many things can happen in a single year. surely, there'll be major changes as i graduate. i don't know if i'm more excited or nervous. like really dunno what's going to happen! at the end of the year, what kind of a person will i become? for better or for worse? for now, i think that if, at the end of the year, i'm still running the race hard, i'll give thanks and praise.