my life is kinda in a swirl now.. my mind cant seem to be focused. cos there are so many things i want to care about and do, so many things sweeping me away from my usual world, so many things inspiring me, so many things distracting me. and then i try to do all of them, neglecting the most pressing thing (u noe the usual sch work) and it feels ugh cos i have to face the music and shoulder the burden of unfinished work. so instead of an upward swirl, it's a downward swirl. so i should try to reverse its direction yes?
jus now while pushing myself through the prac crit, i had a sudden REAL fear of the A levels. i dont wanna sit for it and run away somehow. heh it's times like these i feel like i want to get married right away and have children and take care of a family and that's it! right now i seriously dont mind time flying ahead hahah but ah my marriage had better be good else i'd rather stay the way it is now heh.
ohyes watch more shows and vcds! but good ones. they're the best way to get educated really!
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Friday, February 04, 2005
i jus wanna get it off my chest! it ruined my otherwise perfect friday so i was sooo freakin annoyed!u see we're organizing this steamboat for the elderly on monday and cos people in the group keep backin in and out, the man in charge wants all of us to go down on sunday for a meeting to confirm our attendance on monday. if we have too little people on sunday, he'll kick our group out and cancel out on us. after all those planning! BUT i've got my own things! this project is certainly not at the top of my priority list. i have a family and parents to account to! sunday's the last day i get to spend with my dad before he goes off to m'sia n i wont see him for damn long! and we're have our own reunion dinner before dad goes off and i've already promised my mom i'll come home in the afternoon to make her pineapple tarts!!! PLUS my dad is already annoyed at me for goin out all the time every weekend. and im not goin to waste my time travelling up and down just to show my face! BUT then again, i dont want to cause my entire group to get kicked out! argh. it's not like im not goin to turn up on monday rite. i FULLY intend to turn up! SO ANNOYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tsk.
ugh im still in a bad mood. but i just gotta say i was really really REALLY so happy this evening cos my friend has stopped smoking!!! my friends n i we have been praying for him and i think God's heard us and decided to help! =D hahahh i felt like some fairy's just granted me a wish or something.
i watched Billy Elliot this afternoon! what a treat! =)
ugh im still in a bad mood. but i just gotta say i was really really REALLY so happy this evening cos my friend has stopped smoking!!! my friends n i we have been praying for him and i think God's heard us and decided to help! =D hahahh i felt like some fairy's just granted me a wish or something.
i watched Billy Elliot this afternoon! what a treat! =)
Monday, January 31, 2005
Sunday, January 30, 2005
are there little mini-seasons in singapore? i think summer's comin! the sun's been unusually brighter these days and the skies clearer n.. ive been smelling rain all day long!
anw tis a great sunday! im so glad mich came with me to church today:D n today's sermon was very good n entertaining n pretty hilarious. i think it was the speaker hahha! okaee we learnt bout the tabernacle today and having a balance in worship. there's a reason why there's worship and sermon during service cos we gotta feel the spirit and also understand the word of God. i noe ive said this 2309583times but i gotta say it again! im so extremely happy everytime i go for service! cos i noe it's really time set aside for Him and i feel so liberated whenever i sing praise and learn about Him. though i do it during the week too, there's just that special extra something bout goin for service in church. not only i meet friends but there's the confidence i have in the church! im very unsure of myself when im alone during this journey, im pretty new to my faith and the church is like my trustworthy compass and i feel quite lost n confused sometimes when im without the compass! sometimes i dont know if im understanding Him the right way or sometimes i begin to doubt and sometimes i jus dont know what is right and what He wants. but nevertheless, i'll trust and i'll learn along the way=)
and i wanna give thanks too! (i always forget bout this) for the fellowship i have in school with my classmates! i think it's jus so marvellous!! they help me connect my daily life in school with God, and i feel like im living in His presence all the time! and not to forget my christian teachers as well hahhah its a blessing!
LIVE LOVE LAUGH
( live love laugh ) haha!
anw tis a great sunday! im so glad mich came with me to church today:D n today's sermon was very good n entertaining n pretty hilarious. i think it was the speaker hahha! okaee we learnt bout the tabernacle today and having a balance in worship. there's a reason why there's worship and sermon during service cos we gotta feel the spirit and also understand the word of God. i noe ive said this 2309583times but i gotta say it again! im so extremely happy everytime i go for service! cos i noe it's really time set aside for Him and i feel so liberated whenever i sing praise and learn about Him. though i do it during the week too, there's just that special extra something bout goin for service in church. not only i meet friends but there's the confidence i have in the church! im very unsure of myself when im alone during this journey, im pretty new to my faith and the church is like my trustworthy compass and i feel quite lost n confused sometimes when im without the compass! sometimes i dont know if im understanding Him the right way or sometimes i begin to doubt and sometimes i jus dont know what is right and what He wants. but nevertheless, i'll trust and i'll learn along the way=)
and i wanna give thanks too! (i always forget bout this) for the fellowship i have in school with my classmates! i think it's jus so marvellous!! they help me connect my daily life in school with God, and i feel like im living in His presence all the time! and not to forget my christian teachers as well hahhah its a blessing!
LIVE LOVE LAUGH
( live love laugh ) haha!
Thursday, January 27, 2005
oh gosh! i seriously cant step out of the amelie's world. i wish i hadnt watched the movie so i can watch it again and feel it's magic workin on me! i keep thinkin of her! but nevertheless i love her! i love to watch her move around, i love to see her live her life and i love the things she does! she's kinda like my dream. i love the way she's weird and the way she craves solitude. well, till she meets Nino! Nino's like a dream too! oh gosh everything's like a dream! u noe i noe im weird in my own way like amelie's weird in her own but i dont dare to show mine! and ya noe i actually do some of the wierd things amelie does but i wont say which. and i gotta suppress my own weirdness else i'm dead i'll have no friends!
and i wish i could meet my love the way she did :)
and i wish i could meet my love the way she did :)
Sunday, January 23, 2005
the generous prosper and are satisfied;
those who refresh others will themselves be refreshed.
proverbs 11:25
hahah my father is so funny he couldnt bear to kill the baby lizard in his bedroom so he put it into a plastic bag and threw it down the chute and hoped that it'd find its way out. eh not back to our house obviously!
this has been a pretty good and upbeat weekend! though i did absolutely zero homework. let's see... started with that marvellous story set in spectacular venice! and then yesterday's RSN Navy comp was good though we played like shit but somehow... i jus felt good hahh. ok chubbs dont kill me. i think it was what i could see while i was there. i felt i was more like at a golf course than a field! lookinup from the field and ahead from the gallery, everything's picturesque! the sky looked right out of my kindergarten textbk! and there were coniferous-lookin trees?!?! AND there were aeroplanes!!!!! cos we were so near changi:) ohh and we didnt get the tour the place in the end. i was really lookin forward to it.. nvm. anw my poor shoulders n arms are raging hot n angry shucks! haah damn painful!!!! n then i rushed down for cell jus in time to join them for dinnerr! =D and i had to stuff myself with two paos jus before that cos i was super hungry and couldnt last any longer.. hmm and i think it's really fun to marry a man whom u share many many mutual frens:)
okaee and today i didnt go for service cos it was SO FREAKIN EARLY!!!! and i had to wake up at 6 plus no way man. i woke up at 6.45 to a burning body and i decided to go back to slp. so instead i joined mich's youth group at lloyd's place in the afternoon! it was very enjoyable and i gained a lot from it. A LOT! he's an inspiration! who was in turn inspired by Him! i hope i'd have the chance to join them again:) ahhhh n it was such a pity i cldnt stay longer n drink more of da longan-almond-tofu dessert!!! it was sooooooooooo yummy!!!!! i think it's quite easy to prepare. jus get the ingredients, pour them together and tadaaah! k i shall go shop for them tomorrow on mah way hm frm sch:D oo yea and happy birthday st pauls!! hahaha=D alritee everybody enjoy the week ahead! mm do ONE thing meaningful so it wouldnt be wasted yea!
Though my world may fall,
I'll never let You go.
those who refresh others will themselves be refreshed.
proverbs 11:25
hahah my father is so funny he couldnt bear to kill the baby lizard in his bedroom so he put it into a plastic bag and threw it down the chute and hoped that it'd find its way out. eh not back to our house obviously!
this has been a pretty good and upbeat weekend! though i did absolutely zero homework. let's see... started with that marvellous story set in spectacular venice! and then yesterday's RSN Navy comp was good though we played like shit but somehow... i jus felt good hahh. ok chubbs dont kill me. i think it was what i could see while i was there. i felt i was more like at a golf course than a field! lookinup from the field and ahead from the gallery, everything's picturesque! the sky looked right out of my kindergarten textbk! and there were coniferous-lookin trees?!?! AND there were aeroplanes!!!!! cos we were so near changi:) ohh and we didnt get the tour the place in the end. i was really lookin forward to it.. nvm. anw my poor shoulders n arms are raging hot n angry shucks! haah damn painful!!!! n then i rushed down for cell jus in time to join them for dinnerr! =D and i had to stuff myself with two paos jus before that cos i was super hungry and couldnt last any longer.. hmm and i think it's really fun to marry a man whom u share many many mutual frens:)
okaee and today i didnt go for service cos it was SO FREAKIN EARLY!!!! and i had to wake up at 6 plus no way man. i woke up at 6.45 to a burning body and i decided to go back to slp. so instead i joined mich's youth group at lloyd's place in the afternoon! it was very enjoyable and i gained a lot from it. A LOT! he's an inspiration! who was in turn inspired by Him! i hope i'd have the chance to join them again:) ahhhh n it was such a pity i cldnt stay longer n drink more of da longan-almond-tofu dessert!!! it was sooooooooooo yummy!!!!! i think it's quite easy to prepare. jus get the ingredients, pour them together and tadaaah! k i shall go shop for them tomorrow on mah way hm frm sch:D oo yea and happy birthday st pauls!! hahaha=D alritee everybody enjoy the week ahead! mm do ONE thing meaningful so it wouldnt be wasted yea!
Though my world may fall,
I'll never let You go.
Friday, January 21, 2005
La Pieta!
if there's one place i wanna go right now my first choice would be Venice! altho it's not as vibrant and magnificent a city as it used to be a long time ago, im very sure walkin in her streets and imagining what it once was is thrilling enough! like their months of Carnival before the Lent and all the women in gliterri masks with pearls and jewels sewn on them and the men mysteriously magnificent behind their white bauta masks!! i jus read THE VENETIAN MASK and it just made me wanna go there all the more!! oh gosh and the story's bout these two girls from an orphanage called the Pieta that was famous for its choir. and i was wondering if this orphanage really existed so i came online to do a little searching and GOSH IT REALLY EXISTS!!! how exciting! and there was a big front picture of the orphanage/church and it looked SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH like how i'd pictured it when i was reading! i think the story's obviously not a true one but i'm very sure at least one of the Pieta girls once experienced what i'd read.. :) i look at the picture and i see Marietta and Elena's life in there as two of the most splendid singers and all the adventures of their lives! the orphanage is still there today and I WANT TO GO SEE IT!
how i wish i could live a life like theirs! perhaps jus for a while haha. of cos i dont wanan be an orphan but i jus want something out of the ordinary! their lives, what they do everyday, what they encounter, their experiences, the people, the place, the time.. it's all so beautiful!there's as much mystery and depth and darkness in their world as colour and music.. and it feels like water flowing and swirling in the sea away from the port. i picture mine as water flowing in a storm drain. u get the idea! oh man! that is what books are for i guess.. u get a little of all worlds! tho it only lasts for a few hours.
how i wish i could live a life like theirs! perhaps jus for a while haha. of cos i dont wanan be an orphan but i jus want something out of the ordinary! their lives, what they do everyday, what they encounter, their experiences, the people, the place, the time.. it's all so beautiful!there's as much mystery and depth and darkness in their world as colour and music.. and it feels like water flowing and swirling in the sea away from the port. i picture mine as water flowing in a storm drain. u get the idea! oh man! that is what books are for i guess.. u get a little of all worlds! tho it only lasts for a few hours.
Monday, January 17, 2005
FOOT ROT! FOOT ROT! SAVE ME!!!!!!!! i have sore feet! and it feels so itchy and looks disgusting. and it was so horrible walking home!! so i finally went to the doc after all the advise frm mah frens:) not too bad jus got some cream and tiny tablets to take. thankfully i brought slippers to sch today so mah gross feet could get some fresh air...... lets hope mah feet will get well soon...........
cos of mah rotten feet i didnt do pe and train tdy.. so i jus sat at the gallery while the rest trained and attempted to draw those crazee graphs! and then some of my school's malay boys were singing their malay songs at the top of their lungs RIGHT beside me!!!!! haahahhah usually id have moved somewhere else but i jus sat there and enjoyed their singing! ay it was pretty good k tho they werent the choir! in fact it was really amazing coz they ALL could do the arabian sounding scale so well and they ALL were damn fast learners and they ALL sang in such unison!! like there's this spirit in their singing!! and of cos there was the drum too! i love drum beats hahah! and the boy who was playing the drum was kind n frenly, he showed me how they play da drum and i got to touch it!!!!! hahhah so i learnt something out of my culture tdy! anw yea i kinda want to faint now cos the song they were learning's STUCK in my head! cos i sat there for two hrs doin maths and listening to them sing!
cos of mah rotten feet i didnt do pe and train tdy.. so i jus sat at the gallery while the rest trained and attempted to draw those crazee graphs! and then some of my school's malay boys were singing their malay songs at the top of their lungs RIGHT beside me!!!!! haahahhah usually id have moved somewhere else but i jus sat there and enjoyed their singing! ay it was pretty good k tho they werent the choir! in fact it was really amazing coz they ALL could do the arabian sounding scale so well and they ALL were damn fast learners and they ALL sang in such unison!! like there's this spirit in their singing!! and of cos there was the drum too! i love drum beats hahah! and the boy who was playing the drum was kind n frenly, he showed me how they play da drum and i got to touch it!!!!! hahhah so i learnt something out of my culture tdy! anw yea i kinda want to faint now cos the song they were learning's STUCK in my head! cos i sat there for two hrs doin maths and listening to them sing!
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