hmm i dont really like this blogger thing. miss my easyjournal!! i guess i'll be moving BACK! sounds super retarded.

oh wells..been an extremely tiring week. EXTREMELY tiring.. and i'm EXTREMELY TIRED. a result of trying to clear all my owed homework while being bogged down by new ones. and it's been disappointment after disappointment. SO many disappointments this week :( all kinds too. guess i no longer see things as lightly as i used to and not care about things like my work or my results coz now, i honestly care and i DO worry. and it's an entirely different thing when i dont put in effort and dont do well and i DO put in effort and STILL dont do well. it just stinks. the to make it worse, i can just imagine my maths teacher's face when she's marks my paper this weekend. maybe she's marking it right now!! oh MAN that's the worst part. i'd promised her i'd work harder and I SWEAR I HONESTLY DID! i did all my tutorials and assignments NO COPYING AT ALL! but just WHY didnt it all work out properly during the test?!?!?!! my mind was a real blank. like everything was so familiar yet i had no idea what to do! and everything else too! all those lit assignments that i'd put so much effort in, and the geog test that i really studied for.. guess i must have gone wrong somewhere. everybody learns by making mistakes and i understand that and i'll work harder but it's still rather disheartening.. guess i'll just remember that there's a reason why we're given disappointments. so that when we achieve, the success is sweeter.

sometimes things that i go out of my way to do dont always go appreciated.. although the joy's in it's kindness and thoughtfulness, it'd just be nice to receive a sincere thank you or knowing that the person has paid it forward and extended that warmth to someone else. ah perhaps i expect too much.. but then again it's not like i expect to get something in return for what i do. sigh such a disappointing week it has turned out to be=( hopefully next week it'll get better! it's the last week of the term!! how time flies... soon we'll be leaving the campus i've grown to love so much and our seniors would graduate (no more globe!!sob). i guess the saddest part's leaving mount sinai. what's so bad about our campus!! i have NOTHING to complain about it!! i hope the new site wouldn't be too empty and sterile and souless. ohwell..gotta say farewell to the railway track..and that beautiful second field. i'll never get to see the fallen red petals all over the grass again. coz the next time the flowers are in bloom, i'll be over at bishan.