i just read what nana wrote. she said many people pile themselves up with things they dont enjoy doing, and obviously, they're unhappy at the end of the day. ive got a feeling that is exactly happening to me.

i've been SO packed these few days, travelling so much, springing impromptu activties on myself, i can hardly breathe!!! i simply had to forgo a stayover so i can rest tonight. BUT the thing is, these activities were all worthy of my time. it was the things that nagged at me at the back of my mind that caused me to frown unconsciously all the time. i really dunno what in the world i'm doing. and i'm TERRIBLY disappointed things have turned out this way. it is my dream, things that i ought to enjoy doing. but wth..i know the reason why i am not. i've got to find the courage to do something about it.

=)but as always, there are things that everyone has to be thankful for. thank God for bringing me through every training so far this holiday. im thankful for the comfort You gave me everytime i screwed up on the field, the strength u blessed me with when i really thought i couldnt move, and the joy when i finally got something right, even if it's just a small improvement=) most importantly, i thank You for bringing yan back into my life, even if it's just for this holiday. i was really really SO happy to spend the few days with him=)

everyone enjoy your hols~ spend it WISELY!! heh that advice shld go to myself too hees:)