i didnt know i wasnt supposed to believe in healing power of acupunctures??? i learnt this morning in st paul's that christians shouldnt believe in it coz that way u're not having 100% faith in God. i was puzzled and asked some of them during lunch and they said coz acupuncture (esp the sinseh kind) is based on the yin n yang believe and the 7 -dunnowhat- points in our body and that the head is the most holy part blahblah something like that. hahahh well i dunno what to think of it coz it DID help my mom!

hm decided not to go for the 10-day trip up m'sia during this hols with my cousins and their family. =( it's way too long and i hafta forgo lots of YC and AFUA stuffs for it. plus uh i need to do something bout my econs retest in january and MATHS. BLEAGH! BUT I REALLY NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh help. i need to get out of this cramped island for a while. maybe i'll join qianni's family for their hol if it's not imposing on them. coz it'll be a much shorter vacation say 4 days? or pray hard that my dad will be able to get tickets so we can visit my paternal grandparents and relatives in m'sia. i NEED to spend time with my ah ma and gonggong! miss them =( eh and i dun wanna regret not spending time with them while i still can.

byebye mt sinai

=)going to st paul's tmr morning! every week is so eventful i thought it was a month since i last went there! hmm well this has been a great last week in mt sinai! shall miss it loads, no doubt. but hehe as layming told me, it's great our batch gets to experience the best of both campuses! hahaha yep!! and after she said that, i wondered why in the world i was so sad! she said that it's been a great year at mt sinai and now we can look forward to life in the new campus! hahhahha tt's the way! -grin-

thursday night nana n i camped over in sch!! hahhah it was soooo retarded n sooooo fun! retarded coz we were like two little idiots lugging slping bags she borrowed frm the faction room hahhahh. it was the MOST exciting night in school ever!! we met the policemen wOOtz~~!! and they were both so nice!! i'm SO glad we didnt chicken out in the end! BLEAGH to all those who thought we'd be humji and decide to go home!!!

friday morning was extremely wonderful! haahahh despite me falling ill n having merely 2hrs of bad sleep:) the morning bath in sch at 6.30 was so refreshing coz it was sooooooo cold! the moment i on the tap i had goosebumps everywhere mwahah! and i felt really damn good the whole morning! was feeling down later coz the thought of never having lessons in mt sinai ever made me sad. hee well went over to my cousins' in the evening n stayed over there for the night:) n i felt so much better. i love slping on the sofa there coz when i look up n out of the window, i feel like i'm in heaven=) the view frm up there's marvellous! hmm and this morning, my aunt insisted my face was dirty forced 4294982374million facials on me and offered to uh shape my eyebrows hahhaha! well, it was damn painful but yea guess it looks neater now:) but my face feels funny and my brows are so painful im having a headache! hahhahahah=) uh wanyi hurry end ur Os leh we intend to go out for a midnight movie! (to celebrate end of ur Os AND AHEMAHEM MY BIRTHDAY!!!) hahhahah!

hey rach if u're reading this i'm really sorry bout not setting my priorities right n neglecting my health at the expense of training. *promise i'll put in my best effort.

names!

hahha everything really happens for a reason.

hee i dunno what i'm thinkin mann im going silly. hahah or maybe the thought happened for a reason too!! hhahah should i sit on it or should it do something abt it????

i was thinking about names on my way home, and i thought n realized somehow the meaning of people's names are part of their personality. well, it applies to QUITE a number of my friends, AND MYSELF! hahhaah:) my name means happy n peaceful=) perfect name! hahhah i wonder why i was so ashamed of it last time, but i think most kids shld have once been ashamed of their names? especially if it werent some exotic name. hahhhaa anyway back to my point, i think my name is an exact reflection of what i want in my life! and given what i know of myself, i am happy when i am peaceful, as in literally peaceful. i dont like crowds, i dont like being trapped in the middle of people chattering n talking i will get groggy, i know a good example! i cannot step into heeren. the moment i step in i get dizzy n a headache!! yep! so i thought maybe i am actually a quiet girl! haha so are you what everybody calls u?

God's Grace

The will of God will never take you,
where the grace of God cannot keep you,
hwere the arms of God cannot support you,
where the riches of God cannot supply your needs,
where the power of God cannot endow you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the Spirit of God cannot work through you,
where the wisdom of God cannot teach you,
where the army of God cannot protect you,
where the hands of God cannot mould you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the love of God cannot enfold you,
where the mercies of God cannot sustain you,
where the peace of God cannot calm your fears,
where the authority of God cannot overrule for you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears,
where the Word of God cannot feed you,
where the miracles of God cannot be done for you,
where the omnipresence of God cannot find you.

Everything happens for a purpose.

We may not see the wisdom of it all now,
but trust and believe in the Lord
that everything is for the best.



-author unknown

the pastor's wife shared this poem during last sunday's service:) it means a lot to me.

=) i had a very wonderful day today!! met up with xiaoling in the afternoon~ hehehehe didnt get to catch a movie in the end.....but there're always THE VCDS!!!!! to save the day!! hahhahaha:):) we watched HERO and The Chicken Rice War! Hero was damn good. i loved all the colours and the cheorography. and i'm in love with chinese culture, it's too rich!
late morning at st paul's was great=) everyone there is sooo friendly! hahahah and i cant believe it was my first time playing a proper beat(albeit a super short one) on the drum set!! yep i really love the place=)

hahhah my mom and i were supposed to bake scones together tonight. but hahahahhaha she ended up doing most of it!! i helped by sampling to see if they were yummy enough! hahahhaha bum man me. coz i came home so late she couldnt wait so she just started without me:( heh

went for a Youth Challenge meeting today. i had a horrible headache and the meeting lasted SO LONG n the guy talked SO MUCH i was tired after 2 hrs. but i MUST SAY he's a really amazing man and he's so well experienced and connected! hahhahaha and HE'S DAMN FUNNY!!!!
hmm.. i really loved the East Timor video SO MUCH coz that was exactly what i've been DREAMING to do all the time!

oh n i must mention too that i was SO GLAD he did bring up the thing bout CIP being so dumb. haha k that wasn't the way he put it, but yea that's how i feel it is. i really dont like the way people help out of self interest, which is the wrong value that CIP promotes. the metro CIP prog in rj is a classic example. i overheard comments all over the place like, "hey let's do it! so damn easy to get points la! juz stand there n can slack also!" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh. i think it's just so saddening. i dont think cip's entirely bad coz those in need DO benefit anyway, they get donations and the elderly do get company too when students do their cip. just that most of it wasnt a sincere effort. i feel EXTREMELY uneasy when i have to ask for CIP points after providing my service. i just dont think it's right and though i know that i did enjoy myself so much and i lend a helping hand with my heart, i still feel self-centered. but the thing is, i need the points coz the system requires it =(
so ive decided im going to work hard at afua to promote the arts and get all my cip points from there. and other than that, i'm not getting any points coz it's really against what i believe. yea i hope everyone will give, care, and share from our hearts when we help others coz that's the spirit!!:)

beezieeefeezzieeee

heh actually i dont feel like using the comp at all, but i just dont feel like doing anything else at the moment:)

the week has been extremely hectic.. right from the moment i drag myself out of bed. notice i'm still DRAGGING myself out of bed? i still dont see anything THAT worthwhile sacrificing my beauty sleep for. i remembered i said that i shld learn to wake up in the morning and feel good about it HAHAH but noooo, not yet!!

this is the kinda week that is so packed and full of different activities that monday seemed like a month ago.

training has resumed n it's takin it's toll on my poor little muscles!! hahhah it's been aching since wednesday night. i had to think twice before turning on my side while sleeping:) mwahaha at least i'm feeling healthier now! oh and comp's coming up soon in less than a month's time!! hahah pretty exciting! coach told us to watch our diet. heh i've never done this kinda thing, like preparing so seriously for a competition that i actually have to WATCH MY DIET! hahahah but it sounds damn fun~ and i seriously have to start using some brains on the field...... heheheh

kz right now i just want OP to be over FASTFASTFAST! i'm glad that our grp's doing it SIX days earlier than our originally assigned date! blessing in disguise!! and i hope i wont freak out presenting in front of a sea of foreign faces!!!

n oh dear the something is back to bug me againnnnnnnn!!!!!! FREAK!!!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

praise the Lord!

i ALWAYS believe that when something bad happens, something good will follow and it's just been proven true time after time!! and i juz wanna say that He really listens to our prayers and He's always there for us, and as long as we have faith in Him, He'll always be there to guide us :) i cant be more grateful for that and a BEEEG thank you to all my friends out there who kept me in their prayers too!! =)

hm. can u imagine all the JC students in Singapore die. that's abt the number of cats n dogs that got put down in a year on this puny island.

i wouldnt have much bothered about the bloody F on my maths paper, cept that i think mrs kong is super disappointed and i wouldnt be surprised if she's given up hope in me passing altogether. alright, to be honest, i'm pretty disappointed myself. thought i could pull off at least an E. but anw yeah. i juz dun want to see mrs kong. i feel really quite ashamed of myself this time. guess i'd have to retake the paper, but i do welcome it as a chance for me to redeem myself for myself.

feeling really sucky nowww.. i find it very hard to believe a failure has affected me this much. it was never this way. i had never bothered. looks like things have changed.. owell.

that night lying at the bottom bunk of beck's bed after finishing Cinderella Story, i thought of how important self-respect means to me. i'd always thought i had it, but to think of it, my tolerance level is pretty high. no, VERY high, that i sometimes neglect my pride. hm others think it's a good thing being a nice girl, being able to forgive easily.. yeah, but gradually i find myself growing smaller n smaller each time i just let things be, convinced that they are the ones losing out, no point wasting my energy, i forgive, and not stand up and fight for myself. i've had enough. it is high time for my temper to get hotter.

it was so beautiful, so profound, so simple, so true it was like a dream. i felt sifted and stirred. something in me has changed, i dont know how, but i think it is a beautiful change. i dont want to say too much coz i'd spoil its beauty.

it was two well spent hours this afternoon at st paul's. i dont understand something that happened. but i guess i know the reason:)