oh man..i'm so terribly bummed out from the comp and my brains have been fried red and black by the sun so that i can't pick any of my books up to study anymore. hehe but i still can use the computer huh. since i stepped home i've been lying on my bed listening to music and resting for hours.. and it JUST JUST JUST occured to me that i have only four days to prepare for four subjects worth of CAs..that's an average of one subj a day..HOW IS THAT HUMANLY POSSIBLE!??!?!?? hai looks like i'm done for AGAIN this time. *splat* im too tired to care already.
i'm even too lazy to get started on my yoghurt making. seriously i'm so lazy i sometimes cannot believe myself! sheesh man... i dream so much but i tell you none of them will ever come true cos i'm far too lazy for my own good. all i have are feelings and short-lived passions and even those dont materialize cossss i'm tooooooooo lazy. right now the only thing that is keeping me from goin to bed is the hor fun i'm waiting for my dad to buy on his way home:) yummmm no way im missing that for sleep. haiyohhhhhhhahar ok i think i know why i'm so lazy... bcos i have no sense of URGENCY!!! i've developed a way of thinking that everything will somehow or rather sooner or later take care of itself so there's no point worrying unnecessarily about it. thus, i always think that even if i keep failing and failing and failing somehow or rather i will still do well for my A levels cos im a lucky girl at important exams. so i have this nevermind-la-won't-die attitude. oh man i think God is going to teach me a lesson sooner or later.. nobody can ever be THIS lucky without putting in a drop of sweat. and He'll only help those who want to help themselves. aiyoh good luck to me i'd better buck up..

i've just found the perfect way to improve my chinese -- watch A LOT of taiwanese drama serials! mwahahh this is what i call learn and enjoy learning haahah nvm that it's a cheaterbug way and an excuse to watch shows. :)

i just found my mom's yoghurt maker while digging around the kitchen cupboards. im goin to make my own home-made yoghurt! it seems pretty easy and i may not have to spend my money on yami yoghurt anymore if mine turns out yummy =D

okay and everyone pray that my sprained thumb heals fast..it's actually already almost recovered just that i can't apply too much strength on it and hopefully tmr nobody's going to ram into it :S

beginnings

"the only thing for us to do is to live life with renewed excitement and wonder, because each day is such a brand new experience, with new tastes, new views, new visions, new smells, new parts to discover within us and outside of us..."

that is why i love beginnings, i love new things and i love changes - for its feeling of overwhelming freshness! but of course, it seldom lasts and after a while, it'll simply fade into monotony or habit. so we've gotta search for our own little beginnings everyday so that we can always be renewing ourselves and revisiting this particular freshness. like today, i just changed my drinking cup from a round cup to a square cup. hahaha i've gotta drink from the edge of the cup... and dont you agree you feel good everytime you use a new pen? there's another reason why besides being able to write smoothly witha lot of ink:)
but there's the flip side - i get bored and tired of things and distracted easily. haha like the woodcutter in Woodpile?

Dusk, i realized then is just an illusion, because the sun is either above the horizon or below it. and that means that day and night are linked in a way few things are; there cannot be one without the other, yet they cannot exist at the same time. how would it feel, i remember wondering, to be always together, yet forever apart?

that was noah..beautiful quote from The Notebook by nicholas sparks.

railway track!

man i'm bushed! but what an evening! chris josh and i went down to the railway tracks today to take photosss it's the m'sian one tt we're actually not supposed to enter. it was beeeaaauuutifuuul!! a little out of this world.. tt's all i can manage hahahh i had a lot of nice thoughts down there but they're kinda muddled up in my head. u've gotta see it for urself to know what i mean.. mm and tt's if u like the place (plus all the funny insects) :)

first time i tried my hands at proper photography! it's SURPRISINGLY interesting! i'd have enjoyed it 3498584 times better if i hadn't needed the toilet and was in the proper attire like shoes and long pants. i was in my school skirt and slippers!! yeap but definately a good first time i wouldnt mind trying my hands at it again :D

strangers in harmony

on the train, an indian couple sat beside a chinese family and the little girl was sitting beside the couple. and the indian lady kept smiling at the little girl and even cupped her cheeks n commenting to her husband how adorable she is (my guess) hahhah okae. hee anw the little girl grinned back at her and her mom smiled at the lady too! u noe how our govt's so proud bout our different races being able to live together in harmony. but it's true! and it's a very warm feeling. and not to mention they were strangers. :)

oh mannnn i'm so sad! i lost all the essays i wrote when i was in sec 4 :( those were my favourites and my best ones. though i may have soft copies of them, they wont have ms ong's comments and notes and smiley faces. have been searching for them the whole morning. aaahhhhh they're so precious n they're gone.... oh k i didnt go to sch today again! haahah yest cos of my throat and today cos i woke up late i forgot to on my alarm. my neighbour's over right now! she brought some funny yam pudding made taiwanese style with all the herbal stuffs inside. ahahah i tried a bit out of politeness :S didnt taste good. i dont like herbal foods cept herbal chicken :D
ohdear please pray i'll find my essays... im quite upset over it:(

swirling

my life is kinda in a swirl now.. my mind cant seem to be focused. cos there are so many things i want to care about and do, so many things sweeping me away from my usual world, so many things inspiring me, so many things distracting me. and then i try to do all of them, neglecting the most pressing thing (u noe the usual sch work) and it feels ugh cos i have to face the music and shoulder the burden of unfinished work. so instead of an upward swirl, it's a downward swirl. so i should try to reverse its direction yes?

jus now while pushing myself through the prac crit, i had a sudden REAL fear of the A levels. i dont wanna sit for it and run away somehow. heh it's times like these i feel like i want to get married right away and have children and take care of a family and that's it! right now i seriously dont mind time flying ahead hahah but ah my marriage had better be good else i'd rather stay the way it is now heh.

ohyes watch more shows and vcds! but good ones. they're the best way to get educated really!

i learnt one lesson today. never ever try surviving on a few hours of sleep cos it's a waste of your day! i went arnd like some zombie in a daze and learnt nothing felt nothing enjoyed nothing : bleagh

=D!!!!!!!!!! ----> hahah okay that says it all! nites zzzzzZZZ!