beautiful friendships

some friendships are just weird.. i've had all kinds of them all through my life. really unique ones. you can tell them apart from the more 'normal' kind of friendships. they're more exciting precisely because they're less predictable, more beautiful precisely because they're unusual.

i dont know how you get them. maybe if you put two unusual people together you'll get an unusual friendship. or it simply takes two conflicting personalities that can relate. like a more dependent person with a very independent person. or a razor-tongued person with an over-sensitive person. the thing is, these two kinds of people dont usually gum well..but the interesting part is, some particular pairs do, and their conflicting personalities provide each other a friendship that's operated on a different level that i think is more beautiful than the others because it takes so much more patience and tolerence and understanding from both of us. and when it comes to the point where we accept, understand, and learn from each other, i think it'll be one of the most magical of friendships.

on the flipside..sustaining it is seriously not easy. sometimes, patience wear out, tolerence run thin, its unpredictability gets the upper hand. i dont know what the best way out of it is. it is my nature to bury undercurrents because i have an extremely high level of tolerence and a preference for leaving things to chance. i wouldnt say leaving chance to God because my intentions are more cowardly than holy. on the other hand, blowing up on such a precarious friendship isnt the best solution, neither is being point-blank frank given the personality of the other (haha you can tell which side of the pair i belong to). the best way, i think, is to tap on the most fundamental reason for the existence of our friendship - that is our love for human companionship and fellowship, or perhaps our love for each other.

I can really see God moving in my home, changing people, changing lives :)

i'm putting on quite some weight man i can FEEL the fats! seriously.. :( my parents are not helping haha. i came home from school today to a WHOLE LOAD of food and snacks! and worse still my mom cannot stop cooking. hahha. she's so eager to try out all the dishes she observed while she was in China so she's doing marketing non stop and my dad also. haha but i'm not complaining the food is really good!! just now she did this pancake with blueberry yoghurt and raisins and cheese oooohhh it was sooooo yummy!!! and so easy to make sumore.. that one's not from china btw. haha.

till later~

huhur this is insane... i keep getting waves of panic attacks non stop and then sometimes i'll be excited. 0_0 hahahah shooo cute the face.

yesterday evening my neighbours came over to stargaze! hahahh.. well.. it was kinda like a pathetic attempt cos his telescope was spoilt and we had to use a binoculars ?!?! ya know there was this star that we can see only ever 278yrs. soo exciting! yea... and i THINK we saw mars? cos we're supposed to be able to see it around this time. hahah of course all we saw was a little darting bright dot thru the bino la... hahahah. so silly...
butbut... this has egnited my long lost fascination with astrology!! i used to love studying and memorizing and marvelling at all the stars and planets in our universe.. and i loved all the little gnitty little details like how long each planet takes to revolve around the sun and i used to think they were slow pokes. and how freezing cold saturn is and how freaking hot mercury is.. then all the pictures of the galaxies all the stars!!! oh my... i'm thinking of investing in a telescope but some o fmy friends tell me it's not worth it, and that i can only see the moon most of the time.. hmm.. we'll see...
hoho... and then we saw something else that was quite funny! hahha we have another friend who lives across the street so we tried to spyy.. but the bino not powerful enough la.. but it was bad enough already hahaah saw something we shouldn't have seen!!! quite funny....:)

which brings me back to human fellowship! it's kinda lovely that i have neighbours i now know.. last time i lived in my previous apartment for nearly 7 years but i hardly knew anyone. we just said hi and bye and exchange loooooong pleasantries but that was it! maybe except my opposite neighbour whom we were closer to. it's so fun to have friends who live near you! within shouting range summore hahha.

haha human fellowship who doesnt need it? i love it.


there was some deepavali celebration goin on downstairs and usually such things just KILL me! so noisy and the MCs are really so LAME and crappy i just wanna faint. anw today's one was better.. i jus have something for indian music hahahh their drums are cool and fascinating! and it's pretty catchy.. quite enjoyable doin maths while listening to it. and i looked out of my window and i saw people sitting around the stage or standing around watching, some even with their arms crossed. and i was thinking it is really SO SAD we just stand there and all we do is watch. that's it. i mean c'mon la the beats were so infectious and so happy to dance to but everybody just STONES!!! for a few moments i jus pictured the crowd on their feet and shakin to da indian music, hurhur what a BIG difference! otherwise what's the point of a celebration?!

i was just standing by my kitchen window looking out over the central square.. enjoying my tiny piece of chocolate. and i was thinking about the personal relationships we have with God. and about how God wants a personal relationship with everybody. and as i watched all the many tiny little people moving around the central square, i couldn't help but marvel how He can maintain a personal relationship with each and every single figure that i see from up here. i can hardly maintain just five good ones myself. haha. i have to admit i marvelled with a little disbelief. i was thinking.. our relationship is so... strange. i wouldn't say unique cos it just makes it sound so beautiful and perfect. well.. it is supposed to be. perhaps it is because i am not close enough to Him that i find a relationship between us and God so weird. He's there to comfort us all the time regardless the situation but He doesnt need our comfort. He can get angry with us but we're not supposed to be angry with Him because He's perfect and the only possible fault is ours. isnt all these kinda one-sided? i know, of course, it's all about the love.

however strange it can get, my guess is that it's simply like any other relationships we share with our fellow humans. each and every person that we have a relationship with is unique and special with their very own character and personality. they give different things to us, they demand different things from us, we take different things from them and we give back different things to each and every one of them. likewise, God has His own unusual character. whose isn't?

ahhh.... what a bright and balmy afternoon! :)
perfect weather, lovely!

toodles!

unplugged

hohoho.. alicia keys' Unplugged is minee!! finally! :)
i just love her, everything about her! her music, the way she is, her personality, she's so positive! i think she's one of the few rare true n real music talents left on earth who sing words that they mean and words that even mean something at all. she's like a walking dream!

up n early

woohoo hi all! up and about on an early monday morning! it's only 7:01!!! i cannot believe it! having breakfast and then off to go chionggg off the books! yea! i've been trying to get up at 6 for a week but it never happened cos i always jump out of bed and then roll back on for another couple of hours.. hahahh. today's record breaking! tho it wasnt six 6 but who caressss..
of cos i woke up with some help hhahha.. chris i couldnt believe u woke up too! alrightee mann so reliable haha.

i was thinkin how we define a good sunrise. okaee it cannot be defined but usually if we see pinkish red streaks around a nice orange -blue-white sky it's beautiful! owell i just pitied the other sunrises.. hahahh. i think they're all nice actually even if it's a grey morning.. they're like us! we humans are all unique and different.. some of us may be born more physically beautiful than others but we each have a unique personality and character right! some goes for sunrises... they're all beautiful!

today was a much more productive day than usual.. so i'm feelin good alriiittee :)
a humongous thank you to jeanette and family! :):):):) jeanette helped me with mah maths tdy.. i attempted last year's A levl paper it's supposed to be super duper chicken feet.. budden i was so careless + dunno how to do some. but at least i got a C for it k! not bad already hehe.. jeanette is a good and encouraging teacher! i feel a liiittle bit more confident now.. the last mock test was really ugh la i got an E for it.. so much for smashing my head on the wall. hahah.
nvrrrrrmind:) we have exactly two weeks left! make or break!

SHARING DA LOVE

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! :)
hahahhahah :D :D :D

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHA I'M SO FULL OF LOVE AND EXCITEMENT TONIGHT!
haha share it all man!

haha im tellin ya God works all the time! He NEVER stops working so i'm NEVER goin to stop workin for him either.
shoot me if you want but you'll never get me! :P

anw there's been this thing going on big about the end times recently.. cos of what's been happening in the world and the bird flu. i cannot stop seeing stuffs about it everywhere! .. is it really coming? is this grace period going to be over soon?

G'night y'all i'm gonna faint from fatigue soon :) LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!