beautiful friendships

some friendships are just weird.. i've had all kinds of them all through my life. really unique ones. you can tell them apart from the more 'normal' kind of friendships. they're more exciting precisely because they're less predictable, more beautiful precisely because they're unusual.

i dont know how you get them. maybe if you put two unusual people together you'll get an unusual friendship. or it simply takes two conflicting personalities that can relate. like a more dependent person with a very independent person. or a razor-tongued person with an over-sensitive person. the thing is, these two kinds of people dont usually gum well..but the interesting part is, some particular pairs do, and their conflicting personalities provide each other a friendship that's operated on a different level that i think is more beautiful than the others because it takes so much more patience and tolerence and understanding from both of us. and when it comes to the point where we accept, understand, and learn from each other, i think it'll be one of the most magical of friendships.

on the flipside..sustaining it is seriously not easy. sometimes, patience wear out, tolerence run thin, its unpredictability gets the upper hand. i dont know what the best way out of it is. it is my nature to bury undercurrents because i have an extremely high level of tolerence and a preference for leaving things to chance. i wouldnt say leaving chance to God because my intentions are more cowardly than holy. on the other hand, blowing up on such a precarious friendship isnt the best solution, neither is being point-blank frank given the personality of the other (haha you can tell which side of the pair i belong to). the best way, i think, is to tap on the most fundamental reason for the existence of our friendship - that is our love for human companionship and fellowship, or perhaps our love for each other.