gag.. im currently feeling very frustrated and angry. :( because im feeling very vulnerable. i dont like feeling vulnerable..well nobody does. but the thing is, i'm feeling vulnerable because of other people and i'm not deserving this vulnerable feeling. you know getting me in this position all because of something that i didnt do but something other people did and i dont feel safe.

and i'm feeling vulnerable also because i'm proud, and i hate it when other people know things or find out things that are very personal to me... things that i want to keep between God and myself. maybe i wasn't careful.. maybe i'm assuming things, maybe it is my own fault but it doesnt change the fact that i'm feeling so vulnerable. i dont like it, really. to put it crudely, when other people know about the private and personal parts of your life that they weren't supposed to know of, it feels like you're being raped.