ooh, so he's Collin Raye.. i finally know who the singer is. i've been playing his album thru out my examination period but i didnt know who the singer was cos it's a burnt cd..shhh.. hahah a friend gave it to me and i couldnt remember WHICH friend gave it to me too.. but now i think i can recall who it was.

i figure i'm an extremely lazy bum.. i HATE travelling now...WHYWHYWHY. as in im even too lazy to travel from one end of the island to the other. this is not good at all.... i used to enjoy spending half my day on the train or something hahah. i enjoyed train rides when they werent underground. the best was in the bright morning sunshine when i used to travel an hour to get to church. ooh lala i didnt mind that at all man. and i became so pro i could identify where i was WHEREVER the train was travelling. i could even tell i was halfway thru which stop and which stop. i think ive probably forgotten everything. underground trainrides just SUCK the life out of you and i always stumble out of the train with zero ounce of energy left when all i did was sit in there.

anw my mom's such a awepoifampoweifj!!!! i bet she's attempting to cut off my money supply asap. so that i'll get a job, not that i didnt intend to already. but she's BREATHING down my neck! and the moment i get a job byebyeeeee man i'm on my own. one day if i have no work i will have no money.

hmm so i'm really free now and i'm feeling very lost hahah i dont know what's best to do.. actually i do know hahah. i wish i didnt have to go for prom it's a waste of money and my time and my brain juices... the only good part is i get to see what ritz carlton is like, ive never stepped in there before. but then again you dont need a prom to make you step into ritz carlton. or do you? haha i dont think it's THAAAT high end right. and neither do you need a prom to spend time with your classmates and friends.. grrrrr... i could've used that money to go on a trip to tioman island instead. but since im already going i can might as well make the best out of it:)

striking a balance is really difficult. i just want to learn to spread my wings on my own and learn, REALLY learn for all learning's worth. and you know how they always say do what your heart wants, live for yourself and not for other people. but i cant deny that my parents' age and experiences are there for a reason. argh sometimes they're just so logical they make me feel stupid. what they want for me is NOT at all what i want for myself. but what they think i should be doing makes sense too.. i mean surviving in this world and learning things that are right and actually useful is important.. of course it's good to learn and learn but you gotta make sure you learn the things that you HAVE to know. so HOW what am i supposed to choose? the only thing i can think of right now is to just do everything.