my comp crashedddd and it's bringing so much inconvenience! but good coz i dont spend any unnecessary time on the comp anymore:)

uhwell i'm even busier now im goin to faint. all those cip stuffs are taking up so much of my time grrrrrrr... i hardly have time for myself:( and there will be church activities and the camp also oh mannn..heh not that i'm complaining bout that one. yesterday i spent half my day tying ribbons and carrying heavy HEAVY HEAVY boxes of huge pretty candles at YC! hahah it was MUCH more enjoyable than i expected:) i think it's partly coz we were surrounding by seas of pretty pink colours and they make you happy haha and tying ribbons are DAMN fun!! especially when u're getting pro at it mwahahah:P i'll be selling the candles in town next month! to help the lonely old folks in redhill..well i dunno how im gonna do it! i think i ought to go down and see them and spend some time with them then i'll truly understand the cause of my fundraising. i mean when u ask people to donate u gotta be more sincere and what if they ask me bout the old folks and i dunno what to say that would be so embarrassing!

uh k another gd thing i've started on my maths holiday homework! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!! though it's only very few questions and i'm a super cheater bug. i look at the answers then i do the questions. hahahh

heh k im supposed to be doin my cip now but i'm uh slacking here at the NYC =D uh kinda cant wait for this to be over! hahah =) oh and i hope my dad n i can make a trip to KL and to Penang to visit my grandparents n some relatives..i doubt i'll be going there for CNY next yr coz i'll be missing too much school n my dad isn't alright with it. but i think my grandparents are really growing old and uh...i dun wannt to regret anything yea. so i'll make up for it with a trip down this hols. haahh nvm FINALLY a CNY spent in singapore!

busy as a beeeeeeeeee

i'm so so so so beeeseeeee!!!!! but now i'm enjoying it!! =D
im terribly burnt from training, i'm back to how i was like in uhh..sec 2? hahhahah true blue africann! training's crazy sooo many times a week and my muscles are forever crying for oxygen! but it's good! i feel fresh and fit most of the time! competition's gonna be over soon, and i'm going to miss this entire pretty intensive training season quite a bit:( esp the company of all of us!

hmm and thenn i have my AFUA n YC commitments as usual..the busking festival is coming SOON! i still think i'm one of the MOST slack members mwahahah so i tried to do something by volunteering during the last mtg, and i still have not gotten that done! hee i hope it'll be a blast!! and they want the location managers to double up as emcees....omgosh imagine acting cute in front of a big orchard crowd!!!!! hahhahh i'll DIE of embarrassment.

AND THEN i kinda got myself a job at the turkish restaurant in far east;) hahahh everyone thinks it's a cool place to work! and i think so too!!! hahahha i can learn to play the turkish ice-cream tricks and learn their language frm the man there:D ehhh all those just IF i get the job! but since they said they're in need of part time workers, i think i stand a pretty good chance!! let's hope the boss calls me back soooooooooon......

AND of course there's always Him! the last service was awesome! it was my first time witnessing people getting baptised! congrats to chris=D the church's one looks like a swimming pool hahahha albeit a teeny one hehe! and the sermon was interesting for once! mwahahah.. i didnt have to open my eyes extra wide to look like i was listening! and worship was the best part, as always=) i love the songs!! and there's this particular one that always makes me cry. and i wanna say that He has been there for me, He's been listening to me, encouraging me, comforting me and answering my prayers, and i cant be more grateful for all of it. i'm happy to say that i've truly learnt to be satisfied with what i can have. because i really believe that if He thinks i need it, He'll bless me with it. but if i dont get what i would like to get, it simply means that He thinks i do not need it. perhaps someone else needs it more than i do, or it could actually even be a blessing in disguise!! =0)

OH n i just made oreo cheese cake!!!!!!!!! mwahahahahha! clara taught me how to do it!! the batter was SO yummy i could hardly resist digging my fingers into the bowl! hehe my whole family cant wait for morninggggg!!!!!! off to bed now,God bless,everyone!!~

=D

i enjoyed every single bit of the salsa class!!!!!!! it was soooooooo fun!! and they're therapy sessions~ hahah i feel sooo much better after each class and it's like some workout class also hahhaah:) maybe i'd try out the intermediate classes, a bit ex tho hee=) yayyyy happyhappyjoyjoy x)

i just read what nana wrote. she said many people pile themselves up with things they dont enjoy doing, and obviously, they're unhappy at the end of the day. ive got a feeling that is exactly happening to me.

i've been SO packed these few days, travelling so much, springing impromptu activties on myself, i can hardly breathe!!! i simply had to forgo a stayover so i can rest tonight. BUT the thing is, these activities were all worthy of my time. it was the things that nagged at me at the back of my mind that caused me to frown unconsciously all the time. i really dunno what in the world i'm doing. and i'm TERRIBLY disappointed things have turned out this way. it is my dream, things that i ought to enjoy doing. but wth..i know the reason why i am not. i've got to find the courage to do something about it.

=)but as always, there are things that everyone has to be thankful for. thank God for bringing me through every training so far this holiday. im thankful for the comfort You gave me everytime i screwed up on the field, the strength u blessed me with when i really thought i couldnt move, and the joy when i finally got something right, even if it's just a small improvement=) most importantly, i thank You for bringing yan back into my life, even if it's just for this holiday. i was really really SO happy to spend the few days with him=)

everyone enjoy your hols~ spend it WISELY!! heh that advice shld go to myself too hees:)

bad day

ugh. today was easily the worst day ever in a million years. started off really good n fresh in the sunny morning BUT it had to be ruined by some asshole online. i know it was juz a joke but i was really damn annoyed n i wasnt the least amused.

and i went shopping with my mom. and she was SUPER unsupportive of me going overseas to do humanitarian work. WHY!!!! and then it started pouring heavily. this is the first time this year i'm REALLY shopping. i spent a damn lot of money today, or rather my mom haha. i tell u i'm a really BAD shopper. dont ever ask me out to shop with u coz i'm really impatient even shopping for my OWN clothes!! my mom was super efficient, she kept dumping pants after pants after blouse into the changing room! and i was quite annoyed coz i knew those shops cheated with their mirrors in the changing room. they just make u look slimmer but actually u look much fatter than what u see! hehe and i also did the check nana taught me to see if the mirror was REALLY a mirror or a fake one that is actually a glass wall. heh well if u see a gap between the mirror and the reflection when u put ur finger to the mirror, then it's real! hmm well at least i bought some clothes=) anw i hate heavy rains...it makes me lethargic and i felt like barfing on my way home.. and then i started to ponder bout things that didnt help.. made me feel even worse. i juz thought about how i'm really losing passion n interest in everything i'm doing. and how i get myself into things and messes that i regret. and that's why i do not enjoy doing the things i do even though they're the things that i want to do. owell i dunno what to do now.. i guess i'd have to begin offending people. ugh. right now my stomach feels REALLY funny and my teeth at the back of my mouth are ACHING! omgosh pls dont let it be gum decay or something! I BRUSH MY TEETH TWICE A DAY OK!!!!!!! and sometimes THRICE!!!! or could it be the wisdom tooth??!?!?! OH MAN..........................

i didnt know i wasnt supposed to believe in healing power of acupunctures??? i learnt this morning in st paul's that christians shouldnt believe in it coz that way u're not having 100% faith in God. i was puzzled and asked some of them during lunch and they said coz acupuncture (esp the sinseh kind) is based on the yin n yang believe and the 7 -dunnowhat- points in our body and that the head is the most holy part blahblah something like that. hahahh well i dunno what to think of it coz it DID help my mom!

hm decided not to go for the 10-day trip up m'sia during this hols with my cousins and their family. =( it's way too long and i hafta forgo lots of YC and AFUA stuffs for it. plus uh i need to do something bout my econs retest in january and MATHS. BLEAGH! BUT I REALLY NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh help. i need to get out of this cramped island for a while. maybe i'll join qianni's family for their hol if it's not imposing on them. coz it'll be a much shorter vacation say 4 days? or pray hard that my dad will be able to get tickets so we can visit my paternal grandparents and relatives in m'sia. i NEED to spend time with my ah ma and gonggong! miss them =( eh and i dun wanna regret not spending time with them while i still can.

byebye mt sinai

=)going to st paul's tmr morning! every week is so eventful i thought it was a month since i last went there! hmm well this has been a great last week in mt sinai! shall miss it loads, no doubt. but hehe as layming told me, it's great our batch gets to experience the best of both campuses! hahaha yep!! and after she said that, i wondered why in the world i was so sad! she said that it's been a great year at mt sinai and now we can look forward to life in the new campus! hahhahha tt's the way! -grin-

thursday night nana n i camped over in sch!! hahhah it was soooo retarded n sooooo fun! retarded coz we were like two little idiots lugging slping bags she borrowed frm the faction room hahhahh. it was the MOST exciting night in school ever!! we met the policemen wOOtz~~!! and they were both so nice!! i'm SO glad we didnt chicken out in the end! BLEAGH to all those who thought we'd be humji and decide to go home!!!

friday morning was extremely wonderful! haahahh despite me falling ill n having merely 2hrs of bad sleep:) the morning bath in sch at 6.30 was so refreshing coz it was sooooooo cold! the moment i on the tap i had goosebumps everywhere mwahah! and i felt really damn good the whole morning! was feeling down later coz the thought of never having lessons in mt sinai ever made me sad. hee well went over to my cousins' in the evening n stayed over there for the night:) n i felt so much better. i love slping on the sofa there coz when i look up n out of the window, i feel like i'm in heaven=) the view frm up there's marvellous! hmm and this morning, my aunt insisted my face was dirty forced 4294982374million facials on me and offered to uh shape my eyebrows hahhaha! well, it was damn painful but yea guess it looks neater now:) but my face feels funny and my brows are so painful im having a headache! hahhahahah=) uh wanyi hurry end ur Os leh we intend to go out for a midnight movie! (to celebrate end of ur Os AND AHEMAHEM MY BIRTHDAY!!!) hahhahah!

hey rach if u're reading this i'm really sorry bout not setting my priorities right n neglecting my health at the expense of training. *promise i'll put in my best effort.

names!

hahha everything really happens for a reason.

hee i dunno what i'm thinkin mann im going silly. hahah or maybe the thought happened for a reason too!! hhahah should i sit on it or should it do something abt it????

i was thinking about names on my way home, and i thought n realized somehow the meaning of people's names are part of their personality. well, it applies to QUITE a number of my friends, AND MYSELF! hahhaah:) my name means happy n peaceful=) perfect name! hahhah i wonder why i was so ashamed of it last time, but i think most kids shld have once been ashamed of their names? especially if it werent some exotic name. hahhhaa anyway back to my point, i think my name is an exact reflection of what i want in my life! and given what i know of myself, i am happy when i am peaceful, as in literally peaceful. i dont like crowds, i dont like being trapped in the middle of people chattering n talking i will get groggy, i know a good example! i cannot step into heeren. the moment i step in i get dizzy n a headache!! yep! so i thought maybe i am actually a quiet girl! haha so are you what everybody calls u?

God's Grace

The will of God will never take you,
where the grace of God cannot keep you,
hwere the arms of God cannot support you,
where the riches of God cannot supply your needs,
where the power of God cannot endow you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the Spirit of God cannot work through you,
where the wisdom of God cannot teach you,
where the army of God cannot protect you,
where the hands of God cannot mould you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the love of God cannot enfold you,
where the mercies of God cannot sustain you,
where the peace of God cannot calm your fears,
where the authority of God cannot overrule for you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears,
where the Word of God cannot feed you,
where the miracles of God cannot be done for you,
where the omnipresence of God cannot find you.

Everything happens for a purpose.

We may not see the wisdom of it all now,
but trust and believe in the Lord
that everything is for the best.



-author unknown

the pastor's wife shared this poem during last sunday's service:) it means a lot to me.

=) i had a very wonderful day today!! met up with xiaoling in the afternoon~ hehehehe didnt get to catch a movie in the end.....but there're always THE VCDS!!!!! to save the day!! hahhahaha:):) we watched HERO and The Chicken Rice War! Hero was damn good. i loved all the colours and the cheorography. and i'm in love with chinese culture, it's too rich!
late morning at st paul's was great=) everyone there is sooo friendly! hahahah and i cant believe it was my first time playing a proper beat(albeit a super short one) on the drum set!! yep i really love the place=)