hmm so fast it's coming to the end of the year.. and the As seem..extremely far behind. so many things have happened. it's as though i've gotten use to a new routine, new people new friends.. lotsa activities-MY activities. lotsa fun :D haha i dont miss studying at all yet. i miss my classmates, school friends whom i haven't seen since prom. :( ya know we always think like oh... we have so much time la, SIX whole months! but i tell you the six months will pass before i know it and i'd realise i haven't ever bothered meeting up with any of them and vice versa. so it'd better not happen.
sigh.. some of my colleagues whom i've grown to like very much are leaving very soon.. which is SO saddening :( work will never be the same without them around. owell all's part of life..people come and people go.. i'll meet new people and forget some. but all the same, they've made a difference in my life and i've made a difference in theirs, and that's all that counts really. of course i'll miss them, but it won't be painful for long because after a while, all i'll remember are our happy memories that i look back upon. and at the same time, i'd be meeting new people making new friends and enjoying and immersing myself in whatever i'll be doing then.
i've always wondered why farewells and departures are always so hurtful and painful. i think it was never meant to be like that. everybody's supposed to meet in heaven after all. so even if u've said goodbye, it's only for the time being cos u'll meet again in heaven anyway and there u'll never say goodbye ever. but i guess not everybody's goin to go to heaven. :( owell.. so of course i always hope that someday God will touch my non christian family and friends so that i'll see them in heaven again, and never ever say goodbye.
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Friday, December 23, 2005
argh i left my handphone and wallet and my lens solution and specs at my working place today. how smart.... and it's not even int he locker..i left it ON A CHAIR. i just hope all the staff there are honest enough not to cope anything.. wah jia lat.. how to slp tonight?
i stayed till closing hour for the first time today. actually, i'd just wanted to wait for Yamuna outside but i decided that it's so mean to just go and leave the rest to close the bar themselves while i sit and wait, so i tried to help out closing the restaurant. haha it's so not easy to do the closing duty budden i guess if you just go ahead and try to enjoy yourself it ain't that bad actually.. and you just pray you dont have to close it alone or with somebody you can't work with. but they're usually already so tired, save for prabin whose mouth can never be clammed shut haha, and so it's a very dreadful job.
haha i cannot wait for this week to be over! then we wont be that busy anymore.. then i can slack a little more.. anw this job is good it trains my mental skills.. such as remembering 4 things at a go which i'm getting very rusty at. i used to have good memory skills when i was a kid. hahah now i can make my milo in just 30 seconds cos i can do so many things at the same time.
oh and thank God my manager mananged to change my schedule so i can go for my family's bbq on sunday evening! BUT in return, i have to work 9 hours straight tmr in exchange for the 4 hours on sunday... ugh. unfair exchange. hahha. tt's like 5 hours extra work.. nooo not worth $25.
kk my eyes are killing me byeeee........
i stayed till closing hour for the first time today. actually, i'd just wanted to wait for Yamuna outside but i decided that it's so mean to just go and leave the rest to close the bar themselves while i sit and wait, so i tried to help out closing the restaurant. haha it's so not easy to do the closing duty budden i guess if you just go ahead and try to enjoy yourself it ain't that bad actually.. and you just pray you dont have to close it alone or with somebody you can't work with. but they're usually already so tired, save for prabin whose mouth can never be clammed shut haha, and so it's a very dreadful job.
haha i cannot wait for this week to be over! then we wont be that busy anymore.. then i can slack a little more.. anw this job is good it trains my mental skills.. such as remembering 4 things at a go which i'm getting very rusty at. i used to have good memory skills when i was a kid. hahah now i can make my milo in just 30 seconds cos i can do so many things at the same time.
oh and thank God my manager mananged to change my schedule so i can go for my family's bbq on sunday evening! BUT in return, i have to work 9 hours straight tmr in exchange for the 4 hours on sunday... ugh. unfair exchange. hahha. tt's like 5 hours extra work.. nooo not worth $25.
kk my eyes are killing me byeeee........
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
hohoho... today i collected MY FIRST PAY!! hahah it's quite a measely sum cos i didnt work much last week but still it saved my week! :)
i quarelled with my mom earlier and so i cannot ask money from her... adn i have only four dollars in my wallet left.. so i thought i was going to have to resort to borrowin gmoney from frens.. looks like i dont have to! :) i just hope my mom wont remember to ask for all my money or something :S
i quarelled with my mom earlier and so i cannot ask money from her... adn i have only four dollars in my wallet left.. so i thought i was going to have to resort to borrowin gmoney from frens.. looks like i dont have to! :) i just hope my mom wont remember to ask for all my money or something :S
Sunday, December 18, 2005
today's caroling was so much fun! despite my stupid stomach that was churning shit in it and a woozy little head, i thoroughly enjoyed myself singing! and im sure everybody enjoyed themselves too! hahah it was such an enjoyment and we had great musicians! i hope the homes and people we visited and caroled for have been blessed and they've learnt a little more about the significance of Christmas and the coming of our Lord and have been touched by the spirit of God as much as we have been. yeap, i understood Christmas better after tonight's caroling; through all the lyrics that i sang and through pastor's little sermons about the meaning of Christmas.
there were so many highlights today!
no.1's definitely the few ultra brilliant songs that we sang and the song Immanuel that our extra talented musicians sang!
and during our journey in uncle derrick's car we met so funny people on the road! hahahh we were waving to this little girl in another taxi, and her momma and her brother also waved back! haah so sweet!! and then there was this other taxi driver who drove a cab with the sumo advertisement on it i dunno if you guys have seen it but it's hilarious! and he did this SUMO expression when he saw us laughing at the advert on his taxi! hahhaha SO FUNNY CAN!!! talk about spreading the christmas cheer!
and there was eunice's DOGGIES!!!! Oh mann CLEO is the ULTIMATE cutie pie dog i've ever seen in my entire life!! apsdoijaposidfjasd SO CUTEEEE!!!! i defintely had a good time trying to suppress all the stupid girly squeals. and i lost my first kiss to Cleo haha. oh mannnn...... i could play with it forever. and there was another dog Snoopy who isnt as cute and so it didnt get as much attention.. which was so unfair of us. she's (or is it a he?) an equally nice and adorable dog.
okie i cant possibly recollect anymore for now but anyhow, i JUST enjoyed myself a lot today! =) early merry christmas everybody!
here's a picture of Cleo and all of us HFC carolers :)
if im not wrong this is my first time posting pictures over here haha
toodles~
there were so many highlights today!
no.1's definitely the few ultra brilliant songs that we sang and the song Immanuel that our extra talented musicians sang!
and during our journey in uncle derrick's car we met so funny people on the road! hahahh we were waving to this little girl in another taxi, and her momma and her brother also waved back! haah so sweet!! and then there was this other taxi driver who drove a cab with the sumo advertisement on it i dunno if you guys have seen it but it's hilarious! and he did this SUMO expression when he saw us laughing at the advert on his taxi! hahhaha SO FUNNY CAN!!! talk about spreading the christmas cheer!
and there was eunice's DOGGIES!!!! Oh mann CLEO is the ULTIMATE cutie pie dog i've ever seen in my entire life!! apsdoijaposidfjasd SO CUTEEEE!!!! i defintely had a good time trying to suppress all the stupid girly squeals. and i lost my first kiss to Cleo haha. oh mannnn...... i could play with it forever. and there was another dog Snoopy who isnt as cute and so it didnt get as much attention.. which was so unfair of us. she's (or is it a he?) an equally nice and adorable dog.
okie i cant possibly recollect anymore for now but anyhow, i JUST enjoyed myself a lot today! =) early merry christmas everybody!
here's a picture of Cleo and all of us HFC carolers :)
if im not wrong this is my first time posting pictures over here haha
toodles~
Saturday, December 17, 2005
hi all! it's been quite a while since i last came here... i hope everybody's been having good holiday fun! haha;) it's goin pretty good over here..my little waitressing job's looking better day by day.. not so clumsy anymore and getting to know my colleagues and frens better! haha :) they're all such cute people. now it's cute not just nice haha.
so i've been extremely busy everyday, either working or playing or working-n-playing. spending time with people meaningfully.. there're some othe rthings looking up too but i haven't gotten down to any of them. like the Youth For Christ thing.. the lady hasn't gotten back to me AT ALL. i wanna work with the programme that reaches out to troubled preteens by conducting creative classes for them, for eg. BUT SHE HASN'T CONTACTED ME.
yesterday something super DUPER stupid happened. this lady called me and told me that her colleagued passed her my no. and asked whether i was free for interview. so i just immediately assumed it was the Youth For Christ person calling me and got all excited and everything! so we arranged a date and time which was yesterday..well the lady on the phone was kinda cold and curt and she was like "please come on time. we specially set aside this tim efor you. we just want ten minutes to see how you look like and you can ask the questions you want." ??!!?? why in the world would a social worker talk to me like that, so curtly summore. nvmmmm...
so the next day i even FUSSILY picked out a decent sweet looking pink blouse for the interview and when i got there... i was surprised to see fashion magazines with 'SEX' splashed on their covers on the table.. like HUH Youth For Christ encourages us to read these kinda mags?? and the waiting area was kinda a little too posh. and the lady who came out to greet me was wearing a blouse that was a little too... uh unsocial-worker like. ANYWAY i went into the room n this lady started telling me "we are an advertising agency looking for faces from all kinds of ages.. we'll provide you some training and then you'll do freelance assignments for us blahblahblahblahblah" i got a shock and panicked! HUH?!? "wait... i think i'm at the wrong place."
haha it turned out it was actually the lady who had asked for my name and no. at orchard mrt one million years ago who called me. and i just assumed and didnt ask anything when she called me the first time. hahha so stupid. i was kinda disappointed but anyhow it's still something for me to consider doing.. but after talking to my parents about it we've decided i shouldn't cos it could be a hoax and their programs and training stuffs and selection procedures are kinda unclear and foggy. PLUS i have to fork out $550 for a set of professional make-up kit that i'll never use again. and the probability of me landing an assignment to earn back the money is 15/200. and the six week-end course means forgoing sunday youth mtgs.. hmmm.. so am i throwing away a chance at fame? i still have one more day to think about it.
hmmm tmr's caroling!!!!! hahahha i'm more excited than i thought i'd be:) this is my FIRST time caroling! and tonight was our last rehearsal.. t'was alrighteee and some songs were brilliant! i think the boys in our church can REALLY sing! so few of them but they're like WOAHHHHH O_O!!!! Hehe well, it's all in the spirit of sharing the gospel of Christ and the love of our Lord!
hmm so tonight i'll rest well and tmr i'll be...... doing some housework? haha before caroling.
i haven't mentioned this here before that i've told my mom about my faith and she was miraculously fine about it! =) hahah Amen! and i think she told my dad too since he mentioned it during one of our trivial arguments. anw i'm just so thankful that i dont have to hide anymore! i told mom that i go to church and she's okay with it as long as i dont come home and start preaching to her and im not allowed to get baptised until i'm an adult. it's still a little unbelievable to me and it's hard getting used to not having to hide anymore and telling white lies (which are essentially LIES).. haha weird as it sounds.
well keep safe and well everyone :)
love out!
so i've been extremely busy everyday, either working or playing or working-n-playing. spending time with people meaningfully.. there're some othe rthings looking up too but i haven't gotten down to any of them. like the Youth For Christ thing.. the lady hasn't gotten back to me AT ALL. i wanna work with the programme that reaches out to troubled preteens by conducting creative classes for them, for eg. BUT SHE HASN'T CONTACTED ME.
yesterday something super DUPER stupid happened. this lady called me and told me that her colleagued passed her my no. and asked whether i was free for interview. so i just immediately assumed it was the Youth For Christ person calling me and got all excited and everything! so we arranged a date and time which was yesterday..well the lady on the phone was kinda cold and curt and she was like "please come on time. we specially set aside this tim efor you. we just want ten minutes to see how you look like and you can ask the questions you want." ??!!?? why in the world would a social worker talk to me like that, so curtly summore. nvmmmm...
so the next day i even FUSSILY picked out a decent sweet looking pink blouse for the interview and when i got there... i was surprised to see fashion magazines with 'SEX' splashed on their covers on the table.. like HUH Youth For Christ encourages us to read these kinda mags?? and the waiting area was kinda a little too posh. and the lady who came out to greet me was wearing a blouse that was a little too... uh unsocial-worker like. ANYWAY i went into the room n this lady started telling me "we are an advertising agency looking for faces from all kinds of ages.. we'll provide you some training and then you'll do freelance assignments for us blahblahblahblahblah" i got a shock and panicked! HUH?!? "wait... i think i'm at the wrong place."
haha it turned out it was actually the lady who had asked for my name and no. at orchard mrt one million years ago who called me. and i just assumed and didnt ask anything when she called me the first time. hahha so stupid. i was kinda disappointed but anyhow it's still something for me to consider doing.. but after talking to my parents about it we've decided i shouldn't cos it could be a hoax and their programs and training stuffs and selection procedures are kinda unclear and foggy. PLUS i have to fork out $550 for a set of professional make-up kit that i'll never use again. and the probability of me landing an assignment to earn back the money is 15/200. and the six week-end course means forgoing sunday youth mtgs.. hmmm.. so am i throwing away a chance at fame? i still have one more day to think about it.
hmmm tmr's caroling!!!!! hahahha i'm more excited than i thought i'd be:) this is my FIRST time caroling! and tonight was our last rehearsal.. t'was alrighteee and some songs were brilliant! i think the boys in our church can REALLY sing! so few of them but they're like WOAHHHHH O_O!!!! Hehe well, it's all in the spirit of sharing the gospel of Christ and the love of our Lord!
hmm so tonight i'll rest well and tmr i'll be...... doing some housework? haha before caroling.
i haven't mentioned this here before that i've told my mom about my faith and she was miraculously fine about it! =) hahah Amen! and i think she told my dad too since he mentioned it during one of our trivial arguments. anw i'm just so thankful that i dont have to hide anymore! i told mom that i go to church and she's okay with it as long as i dont come home and start preaching to her and im not allowed to get baptised until i'm an adult. it's still a little unbelievable to me and it's hard getting used to not having to hide anymore and telling white lies (which are essentially LIES).. haha weird as it sounds.
well keep safe and well everyone :)
love out!
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
today's my first day at work! all i can say is it's FREAKING TIRING!! omgosh. and i stupidly went without dinner cos i thought i could eat later but they cleared the dishes already :( my legs are seriously collapsing and today's JUST day numero one. great.......
hahah but on the brighter note (there's always a brighter note) which is quite bright, the people there are generally nice, in fact, some of them are so nice they just ooze kindness. i'm serious! everybody there's so willing to teach the newbies. okay i just havent gotten yelled at and im totally expecting that to come cos everybody gets it so they say. and it's like nepal land there hahah cos there are SO many nepalese people! i was surprised! the only prob's that their accent is so strong i have no idea what they're saying most of the time so some miscommunication and so some blunders. anw i jus wanna say they're really nice people and it's seriously a big blessing to have nice people to work with..u know how nasty the working arena can get. =) it really wasnt easy today they made us go out there the moment we started with a little bit of oreintation. no time to memorize sitting plan my goodness it's SO random! and im still pretty confused with the system and stuffs.. and i actually quivered when i first began serving the cups cos i was SO scared i'd spill it. not a single drop can spill ya know. and i had to pour watermelon juice in front of the customer from some big weirdo jug :S that one was really a miracle i didnt spill anything!
anw ive made my choice already and it's hurt people close to me. but im very sure this wasnt my choice to make in the first place. God's plan is always perfect and for the good and the better. so good things will come out of it, and im totally certain of it. so please dont be sad cos it's not a sad thing at all. and i'll still see you guys, i promise! i'm very thankful God's given me an answer and that ive took the step of faith and courage to accept it.
hahah but on the brighter note (there's always a brighter note) which is quite bright, the people there are generally nice, in fact, some of them are so nice they just ooze kindness. i'm serious! everybody there's so willing to teach the newbies. okay i just havent gotten yelled at and im totally expecting that to come cos everybody gets it so they say. and it's like nepal land there hahah cos there are SO many nepalese people! i was surprised! the only prob's that their accent is so strong i have no idea what they're saying most of the time so some miscommunication and so some blunders. anw i jus wanna say they're really nice people and it's seriously a big blessing to have nice people to work with..u know how nasty the working arena can get. =) it really wasnt easy today they made us go out there the moment we started with a little bit of oreintation. no time to memorize sitting plan my goodness it's SO random! and im still pretty confused with the system and stuffs.. and i actually quivered when i first began serving the cups cos i was SO scared i'd spill it. not a single drop can spill ya know. and i had to pour watermelon juice in front of the customer from some big weirdo jug :S that one was really a miracle i didnt spill anything!
anw ive made my choice already and it's hurt people close to me. but im very sure this wasnt my choice to make in the first place. God's plan is always perfect and for the good and the better. so good things will come out of it, and im totally certain of it. so please dont be sad cos it's not a sad thing at all. and i'll still see you guys, i promise! i'm very thankful God's given me an answer and that ive took the step of faith and courage to accept it.
Friday, December 02, 2005
it's joshua's birthday today! he invited all of us over to his home for a HUGE yummy meal with the super HUGE tub of ben n jerry's ice cream.. wah it's seriously huge, i only see those kinda tubs at the ice cream counters where they dig the icecream from for you. it was a lot of fun with da games and all too:)
SO i'm finally home.. i haven tbeen home the past two nights.. let's see...last last night, i slept over at youzi's. we watched gilmore girls!! and I AM HOOKED!!! the show is super niceee and i love the humour! especially the sacarstic humour that i want to but shouldnt use on others, and the mom's hahahh she's hilarious!
and yesterday it was bunking over at beck's...so much for waking up for a run.. we just slept and slept and the drilling upstairs gave me such a pleasant morning heart attack. hahah so it was the usual...watching dvds or rather just ME watching. i think ive been to her house too many times to get any excitement out of it haha. and i was kinda amazed how her brother has grown! apparently the first time i met him, he was just p5 and now he's just finished his O levels! woah time flies pretty fast huh. so ive actually seen him growing from a boy to a half-man haha.
argh now i really miss my room, im barely at home! it's really like a hotel haha. tmr's gonna be another full day out save for housework in the morning. and the next too and the next too. omg i have no rest hahaha can you believe this, i'm getting exhausted playing!! haha but i do recall a few months back when i wished i could get exhausted playing instead of studying. hurhur the wish's come true! be careful what you wish :)
hee anw ive got the job! it wasnt much of an interview la they basically needed people anw.. as long as im willing to work on xmas and new years eve.... how sad is that. then again, ive never spent xmas and new years eves in a restaurant serving people before! so this is gonna be a very different and hopefully special way to spend these holidays for me!
SO i'm finally home.. i haven tbeen home the past two nights.. let's see...last last night, i slept over at youzi's. we watched gilmore girls!! and I AM HOOKED!!! the show is super niceee and i love the humour! especially the sacarstic humour that i want to but shouldnt use on others, and the mom's hahahh she's hilarious!
and yesterday it was bunking over at beck's...so much for waking up for a run.. we just slept and slept and the drilling upstairs gave me such a pleasant morning heart attack. hahah so it was the usual...watching dvds or rather just ME watching. i think ive been to her house too many times to get any excitement out of it haha. and i was kinda amazed how her brother has grown! apparently the first time i met him, he was just p5 and now he's just finished his O levels! woah time flies pretty fast huh. so ive actually seen him growing from a boy to a half-man haha.
argh now i really miss my room, im barely at home! it's really like a hotel haha. tmr's gonna be another full day out save for housework in the morning. and the next too and the next too. omg i have no rest hahaha can you believe this, i'm getting exhausted playing!! haha but i do recall a few months back when i wished i could get exhausted playing instead of studying. hurhur the wish's come true! be careful what you wish :)
hee anw ive got the job! it wasnt much of an interview la they basically needed people anw.. as long as im willing to work on xmas and new years eve.... how sad is that. then again, ive never spent xmas and new years eves in a restaurant serving people before! so this is gonna be a very different and hopefully special way to spend these holidays for me!
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
yoohoo...
wah ive been very busy :) having good fun hahah the best fun was at Warren! wheee....
right after the As ended i thought i was super bored with nothing to do la.. now all the activities start piling in and i cannot cope alreadeee i want to go for everythign but everything is clashing.. alibabaaaa. aahhahh.
ive got an interview coming up at 3 later... i hope i'll get the job! i really want it (i mean i really really NEED THE CASH)! haha it's a waitressing job at the jacks place outlet in orchard. that place's tough training, demanding customers (i saw one myself :S), the staff say they cry everyday haha. so it's good for me! and ive met some of the staff there they're really nice and warm.. though i know they'll prob start yelling at me IF and when i start working there. it's quite hard to get i heard :S gahh... praypray pleeeease God let me have the job!
hmm ive finally started exercising!! FINALLY FINALLY! omgosh i feel so alive now... hahah :) i shoulnd't have been so lazy during the exams period.. what a difference it'd have made.
alrightee so here's to an extremely busy week ahead and the week after with a lot of things to do n a lot of fun, and also to an extremely busy mind and heart with a lot of things going on in there that i have to sort out "(
wah ive been very busy :) having good fun hahah the best fun was at Warren! wheee....
right after the As ended i thought i was super bored with nothing to do la.. now all the activities start piling in and i cannot cope alreadeee i want to go for everythign but everything is clashing.. alibabaaaa. aahhahh.
ive got an interview coming up at 3 later... i hope i'll get the job! i really want it (i mean i really really NEED THE CASH)! haha it's a waitressing job at the jacks place outlet in orchard. that place's tough training, demanding customers (i saw one myself :S), the staff say they cry everyday haha. so it's good for me! and ive met some of the staff there they're really nice and warm.. though i know they'll prob start yelling at me IF and when i start working there. it's quite hard to get i heard :S gahh... praypray pleeeease God let me have the job!
hmm ive finally started exercising!! FINALLY FINALLY! omgosh i feel so alive now... hahah :) i shoulnd't have been so lazy during the exams period.. what a difference it'd have made.
alrightee so here's to an extremely busy week ahead and the week after with a lot of things to do n a lot of fun, and also to an extremely busy mind and heart with a lot of things going on in there that i have to sort out "(
Friday, November 25, 2005
Thursday, November 24, 2005
ooh, so he's Collin Raye.. i finally know who the singer is. i've been playing his album thru out my examination period but i didnt know who the singer was cos it's a burnt cd..shhh.. hahah a friend gave it to me and i couldnt remember WHICH friend gave it to me too.. but now i think i can recall who it was.
i figure i'm an extremely lazy bum.. i HATE travelling now...WHYWHYWHY. as in im even too lazy to travel from one end of the island to the other. this is not good at all.... i used to enjoy spending half my day on the train or something hahah. i enjoyed train rides when they werent underground. the best was in the bright morning sunshine when i used to travel an hour to get to church. ooh lala i didnt mind that at all man. and i became so pro i could identify where i was WHEREVER the train was travelling. i could even tell i was halfway thru which stop and which stop. i think ive probably forgotten everything. underground trainrides just SUCK the life out of you and i always stumble out of the train with zero ounce of energy left when all i did was sit in there.
anw my mom's such a awepoifampoweifj!!!! i bet she's attempting to cut off my money supply asap. so that i'll get a job, not that i didnt intend to already. but she's BREATHING down my neck! and the moment i get a job byebyeeeee man i'm on my own. one day if i have no work i will have no money.
hmm so i'm really free now and i'm feeling very lost hahah i dont know what's best to do.. actually i do know hahah. i wish i didnt have to go for prom it's a waste of money and my time and my brain juices... the only good part is i get to see what ritz carlton is like, ive never stepped in there before. but then again you dont need a prom to make you step into ritz carlton. or do you? haha i dont think it's THAAAT high end right. and neither do you need a prom to spend time with your classmates and friends.. grrrrr... i could've used that money to go on a trip to tioman island instead. but since im already going i can might as well make the best out of it:)
striking a balance is really difficult. i just want to learn to spread my wings on my own and learn, REALLY learn for all learning's worth. and you know how they always say do what your heart wants, live for yourself and not for other people. but i cant deny that my parents' age and experiences are there for a reason. argh sometimes they're just so logical they make me feel stupid. what they want for me is NOT at all what i want for myself. but what they think i should be doing makes sense too.. i mean surviving in this world and learning things that are right and actually useful is important.. of course it's good to learn and learn but you gotta make sure you learn the things that you HAVE to know. so HOW what am i supposed to choose? the only thing i can think of right now is to just do everything.
i figure i'm an extremely lazy bum.. i HATE travelling now...WHYWHYWHY. as in im even too lazy to travel from one end of the island to the other. this is not good at all.... i used to enjoy spending half my day on the train or something hahah. i enjoyed train rides when they werent underground. the best was in the bright morning sunshine when i used to travel an hour to get to church. ooh lala i didnt mind that at all man. and i became so pro i could identify where i was WHEREVER the train was travelling. i could even tell i was halfway thru which stop and which stop. i think ive probably forgotten everything. underground trainrides just SUCK the life out of you and i always stumble out of the train with zero ounce of energy left when all i did was sit in there.
anw my mom's such a awepoifampoweifj!!!! i bet she's attempting to cut off my money supply asap. so that i'll get a job, not that i didnt intend to already. but she's BREATHING down my neck! and the moment i get a job byebyeeeee man i'm on my own. one day if i have no work i will have no money.
hmm so i'm really free now and i'm feeling very lost hahah i dont know what's best to do.. actually i do know hahah. i wish i didnt have to go for prom it's a waste of money and my time and my brain juices... the only good part is i get to see what ritz carlton is like, ive never stepped in there before. but then again you dont need a prom to make you step into ritz carlton. or do you? haha i dont think it's THAAAT high end right. and neither do you need a prom to spend time with your classmates and friends.. grrrrr... i could've used that money to go on a trip to tioman island instead. but since im already going i can might as well make the best out of it:)
striking a balance is really difficult. i just want to learn to spread my wings on my own and learn, REALLY learn for all learning's worth. and you know how they always say do what your heart wants, live for yourself and not for other people. but i cant deny that my parents' age and experiences are there for a reason. argh sometimes they're just so logical they make me feel stupid. what they want for me is NOT at all what i want for myself. but what they think i should be doing makes sense too.. i mean surviving in this world and learning things that are right and actually useful is important.. of course it's good to learn and learn but you gotta make sure you learn the things that you HAVE to know. so HOW what am i supposed to choose? the only thing i can think of right now is to just do everything.
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