first week of word at ministry of law wasn't too bad. in fact, it got pretty enjoyable towards the end of the week as i got more comfy with my space and familiar with the work.
on the first two days, the only two things i felt was frustration and boredom. i couldnt understand anything i was doing or what was required. ive never heard of nearly all the funny terms before and these things are totally out of my sphere of interest.
haha but now it's just getting more routine with the reviewing. and reading bankruptcy letters, stories and actually meeting them in person proved my stupid attitude wrong.

haha anyhow, i discovered the BEST coffee i've ever tasted in my entire life after my colleague treated us to coffee and curry puffs one morning. seriously, it's SO good! but but..it has very high caffeine content me think. which resulted in a crazy heart thumping adrenaline high friday. haha it was nuts la! i couldnt breathe properly my heart was pounding and i kept shaking my legs in my chair! hahah. obviously i couldnt concentrate on my work and i spent my time trying to disturb miche. since saying no to that coffee is impossible, i'd just have half a cup.

i think my managers at jacks place are really very understanding and kind people. it's rare to meet such nice supervisors, esp from what i hear around talkin to my other frens who work. im still working at jacks place in the evenings after work haha. it's a little crazy, but surprisingly, it didnt turn out as bad and draining as i thought it'd be. it was, just not that bad. and i think i can take it so i'd continue holding two concurrent jobs.

officially feeling very very bored. i thought it was great i got nearly the whole week off from work since i've been working quite a bit the past few weeks and im a little tired. so i have nothing to do now.. though there are some books waiting for me in my room.

hmm.. iwent for a facial earlier. it's been sometime since iwent to one. ouch it hurt quite a lot though it wasnt as bad as the first time iwent. that experience was incomparable. i had so muchdirt under my skin to remove and it hurt so much i really thought i was dead and after that i looked like the monster from under your bed for about four days. haha today she tried to put this iced mask on my skin and it was SO so so cold! together with my fresh facial wounds, it felt like iwas attacked by a pot of queen ants and after a while i just felt like a popsicle. and after some more aaahs and helps she decided we were both better off without it on my face. anyway i feel really clean now :)

so tmr im finally going to exercise a little playing tennis with my classmates! haha i have no idea how im goin to play. according to the last time i tried my hands at it we had a good workout picking the balls up. hopefully i'll learn a little bit more tmr ;)

hi there!
ive been missing for a pretty long while...just pretty long. haha well i'm still feeling sour about not being able to view my own blog cos it's stuck far far behind in the time machine for some funny reason. i cant view any blog's jan and feb posts..weird.

anw thanks jean for the layout it's marvellous! hahah personalized. :) hehe.

so....ive been working and playing hard lately. i really like having lots of time to myself. ya know time that i can spend the way i like haha. even work cannot dictate the way i want to arrange my day because all i do now is adhoc teaching and part time waitressing. so i can reject teaching calls and arrange my own waitressing schedule which makes my working timings very flexible. and i like spending my own money :) haha. fruits of my own labour. i like not having to depend on my parents for pocket money i hope i'll never have to. im really enjoying this i hope school will never have to start.but it inevitably will so i hope that when school starts i'll be able to find some way to keep this up. i dont want to just study it's boring.

and... some things have grown kind of complicated lately and i really dont want it to affect my spiritual growth but i have to admit it is. blah it's so difficult to keep focus but there is no choice -i have to keep focus. i guess the only possible reason for things to go course is myself.

anw hi ju! haha thanks for dropping by and finding nothing to read. maybe you can try rereading the entire blog =D

and hi to anybody who still visits here and i wish you well always

tata~

i tried to change my blog template but it just refuses to be published. or maybe it did but i can't see it. haha never mind =)

i haven't written here in quite a while, and during this long while i've lived through so many moments and feelings that i never thought i'd quite experience haha but these experiences are ones that i'd want to remember and treasure. i learnt so much more about myself, things that even surprised me,and many other people.

it's never any harm reaching out and going an extra mile to help or to know somebody better and go make a difference, cos i want to tell you what i got in return were inmaterial things that are so special i cant tell you how much they mean to me. I did things that i'd always wanted to do but never had the courage to, and i'm so thankful God gave me the courage to because it is very unlike myself. i learnt that God doesnt put people and situations right in front of my eyes under my nose for no reason. there's ALWAYS a reason and there's always something that He'd like me to do. gosh i'm SO happy right now i feel like my chest is goin to burst with joy :)
whatever becomes of the next five months of my holidays, i dont know what to expect, but i hope i'll be able to make it as meaningful as the past couple of months have been. i'll definately be trying out other new things cos seven-months-holidays dont come by all the time. THIS is how i've always wanted my holidays to be like.

oh and another thing, jean is right - my instincts are one of my greatest gifts.

hmm so fast it's coming to the end of the year.. and the As seem..extremely far behind. so many things have happened. it's as though i've gotten use to a new routine, new people new friends.. lotsa activities-MY activities. lotsa fun :D haha i dont miss studying at all yet. i miss my classmates, school friends whom i haven't seen since prom. :( ya know we always think like oh... we have so much time la, SIX whole months! but i tell you the six months will pass before i know it and i'd realise i haven't ever bothered meeting up with any of them and vice versa. so it'd better not happen.
sigh.. some of my colleagues whom i've grown to like very much are leaving very soon.. which is SO saddening :( work will never be the same without them around. owell all's part of life..people come and people go.. i'll meet new people and forget some. but all the same, they've made a difference in my life and i've made a difference in theirs, and that's all that counts really. of course i'll miss them, but it won't be painful for long because after a while, all i'll remember are our happy memories that i look back upon. and at the same time, i'd be meeting new people making new friends and enjoying and immersing myself in whatever i'll be doing then.
i've always wondered why farewells and departures are always so hurtful and painful. i think it was never meant to be like that. everybody's supposed to meet in heaven after all. so even if u've said goodbye, it's only for the time being cos u'll meet again in heaven anyway and there u'll never say goodbye ever. but i guess not everybody's goin to go to heaven. :( owell.. so of course i always hope that someday God will touch my non christian family and friends so that i'll see them in heaven again, and never ever say goodbye.

argh i left my handphone and wallet and my lens solution and specs at my working place today. how smart.... and it's not even int he locker..i left it ON A CHAIR. i just hope all the staff there are honest enough not to cope anything.. wah jia lat.. how to slp tonight?
i stayed till closing hour for the first time today. actually, i'd just wanted to wait for Yamuna outside but i decided that it's so mean to just go and leave the rest to close the bar themselves while i sit and wait, so i tried to help out closing the restaurant. haha it's so not easy to do the closing duty budden i guess if you just go ahead and try to enjoy yourself it ain't that bad actually.. and you just pray you dont have to close it alone or with somebody you can't work with. but they're usually already so tired, save for prabin whose mouth can never be clammed shut haha, and so it's a very dreadful job.
haha i cannot wait for this week to be over! then we wont be that busy anymore.. then i can slack a little more.. anw this job is good it trains my mental skills.. such as remembering 4 things at a go which i'm getting very rusty at. i used to have good memory skills when i was a kid. hahah now i can make my milo in just 30 seconds cos i can do so many things at the same time.
oh and thank God my manager mananged to change my schedule so i can go for my family's bbq on sunday evening! BUT in return, i have to work 9 hours straight tmr in exchange for the 4 hours on sunday... ugh. unfair exchange. hahha. tt's like 5 hours extra work.. nooo not worth $25.
kk my eyes are killing me byeeee........

hohoho... today i collected MY FIRST PAY!! hahah it's quite a measely sum cos i didnt work much last week but still it saved my week! :)
i quarelled with my mom earlier and so i cannot ask money from her... adn i have only four dollars in my wallet left.. so i thought i was going to have to resort to borrowin gmoney from frens.. looks like i dont have to! :) i just hope my mom wont remember to ask for all my money or something :S

today's caroling was so much fun! despite my stupid stomach that was churning shit in it and a woozy little head, i thoroughly enjoyed myself singing! and im sure everybody enjoyed themselves too! hahah it was such an enjoyment and we had great musicians! i hope the homes and people we visited and caroled for have been blessed and they've learnt a little more about the significance of Christmas and the coming of our Lord and have been touched by the spirit of God as much as we have been. yeap, i understood Christmas better after tonight's caroling; through all the lyrics that i sang and through pastor's little sermons about the meaning of Christmas.
there were so many highlights today!
no.1's definitely the few ultra brilliant songs that we sang and the song Immanuel that our extra talented musicians sang!
and during our journey in uncle derrick's car we met so funny people on the road! hahahh we were waving to this little girl in another taxi, and her momma and her brother also waved back! haah so sweet!! and then there was this other taxi driver who drove a cab with the sumo advertisement on it i dunno if you guys have seen it but it's hilarious! and he did this SUMO expression when he saw us laughing at the advert on his taxi! hahhaha SO FUNNY CAN!!! talk about spreading the christmas cheer!
and there was eunice's DOGGIES!!!! Oh mann CLEO is the ULTIMATE cutie pie dog i've ever seen in my entire life!! apsdoijaposidfjasd SO CUTEEEE!!!! i defintely had a good time trying to suppress all the stupid girly squeals. and i lost my first kiss to Cleo haha. oh mannnn...... i could play with it forever. and there was another dog Snoopy who isnt as cute and so it didnt get as much attention.. which was so unfair of us. she's (or is it a he?) an equally nice and adorable dog.
okie i cant possibly recollect anymore for now but anyhow, i JUST enjoyed myself a lot today! =) early merry christmas everybody!

here's a picture of Cleo and all of us HFC carolers :)
if im not wrong this is my first time posting pictures over here haha



toodles~

hi all! it's been quite a while since i last came here... i hope everybody's been having good holiday fun! haha;) it's goin pretty good over here..my little waitressing job's looking better day by day.. not so clumsy anymore and getting to know my colleagues and frens better! haha :) they're all such cute people. now it's cute not just nice haha.
so i've been extremely busy everyday, either working or playing or working-n-playing. spending time with people meaningfully.. there're some othe rthings looking up too but i haven't gotten down to any of them. like the Youth For Christ thing.. the lady hasn't gotten back to me AT ALL. i wanna work with the programme that reaches out to troubled preteens by conducting creative classes for them, for eg. BUT SHE HASN'T CONTACTED ME.
yesterday something super DUPER stupid happened. this lady called me and told me that her colleagued passed her my no. and asked whether i was free for interview. so i just immediately assumed it was the Youth For Christ person calling me and got all excited and everything! so we arranged a date and time which was yesterday..well the lady on the phone was kinda cold and curt and she was like "please come on time. we specially set aside this tim efor you. we just want ten minutes to see how you look like and you can ask the questions you want." ??!!?? why in the world would a social worker talk to me like that, so curtly summore. nvmmmm...
so the next day i even FUSSILY picked out a decent sweet looking pink blouse for the interview and when i got there... i was surprised to see fashion magazines with 'SEX' splashed on their covers on the table.. like HUH Youth For Christ encourages us to read these kinda mags?? and the waiting area was kinda a little too posh. and the lady who came out to greet me was wearing a blouse that was a little too... uh unsocial-worker like. ANYWAY i went into the room n this lady started telling me "we are an advertising agency looking for faces from all kinds of ages.. we'll provide you some training and then you'll do freelance assignments for us blahblahblahblahblah" i got a shock and panicked! HUH?!? "wait... i think i'm at the wrong place."
haha it turned out it was actually the lady who had asked for my name and no. at orchard mrt one million years ago who called me. and i just assumed and didnt ask anything when she called me the first time. hahha so stupid. i was kinda disappointed but anyhow it's still something for me to consider doing.. but after talking to my parents about it we've decided i shouldn't cos it could be a hoax and their programs and training stuffs and selection procedures are kinda unclear and foggy. PLUS i have to fork out $550 for a set of professional make-up kit that i'll never use again. and the probability of me landing an assignment to earn back the money is 15/200. and the six week-end course means forgoing sunday youth mtgs.. hmmm.. so am i throwing away a chance at fame? i still have one more day to think about it.

hmmm tmr's caroling!!!!! hahahha i'm more excited than i thought i'd be:) this is my FIRST time caroling! and tonight was our last rehearsal.. t'was alrighteee and some songs were brilliant! i think the boys in our church can REALLY sing! so few of them but they're like WOAHHHHH O_O!!!! Hehe well, it's all in the spirit of sharing the gospel of Christ and the love of our Lord!
hmm so tonight i'll rest well and tmr i'll be...... doing some housework? haha before caroling.

i haven't mentioned this here before that i've told my mom about my faith and she was miraculously fine about it! =) hahah Amen! and i think she told my dad too since he mentioned it during one of our trivial arguments. anw i'm just so thankful that i dont have to hide anymore! i told mom that i go to church and she's okay with it as long as i dont come home and start preaching to her and im not allowed to get baptised until i'm an adult. it's still a little unbelievable to me and it's hard getting used to not having to hide anymore and telling white lies (which are essentially LIES).. haha weird as it sounds.

well keep safe and well everyone :)
love out!

today's my first day at work! all i can say is it's FREAKING TIRING!! omgosh. and i stupidly went without dinner cos i thought i could eat later but they cleared the dishes already :( my legs are seriously collapsing and today's JUST day numero one. great.......
hahah but on the brighter note (there's always a brighter note) which is quite bright, the people there are generally nice, in fact, some of them are so nice they just ooze kindness. i'm serious! everybody there's so willing to teach the newbies. okay i just havent gotten yelled at and im totally expecting that to come cos everybody gets it so they say. and it's like nepal land there hahah cos there are SO many nepalese people! i was surprised! the only prob's that their accent is so strong i have no idea what they're saying most of the time so some miscommunication and so some blunders. anw i jus wanna say they're really nice people and it's seriously a big blessing to have nice people to work with..u know how nasty the working arena can get. =) it really wasnt easy today they made us go out there the moment we started with a little bit of oreintation. no time to memorize sitting plan my goodness it's SO random! and im still pretty confused with the system and stuffs.. and i actually quivered when i first began serving the cups cos i was SO scared i'd spill it. not a single drop can spill ya know. and i had to pour watermelon juice in front of the customer from some big weirdo jug :S that one was really a miracle i didnt spill anything!

anw ive made my choice already and it's hurt people close to me. but im very sure this wasnt my choice to make in the first place. God's plan is always perfect and for the good and the better. so good things will come out of it, and im totally certain of it. so please dont be sad cos it's not a sad thing at all. and i'll still see you guys, i promise! i'm very thankful God's given me an answer and that ive took the step of faith and courage to accept it.