=D

i enjoyed every single bit of the salsa class!!!!!!! it was soooooooo fun!! and they're therapy sessions~ hahah i feel sooo much better after each class and it's like some workout class also hahhaah:) maybe i'd try out the intermediate classes, a bit ex tho hee=) yayyyy happyhappyjoyjoy x)

i just read what nana wrote. she said many people pile themselves up with things they dont enjoy doing, and obviously, they're unhappy at the end of the day. ive got a feeling that is exactly happening to me.

i've been SO packed these few days, travelling so much, springing impromptu activties on myself, i can hardly breathe!!! i simply had to forgo a stayover so i can rest tonight. BUT the thing is, these activities were all worthy of my time. it was the things that nagged at me at the back of my mind that caused me to frown unconsciously all the time. i really dunno what in the world i'm doing. and i'm TERRIBLY disappointed things have turned out this way. it is my dream, things that i ought to enjoy doing. but wth..i know the reason why i am not. i've got to find the courage to do something about it.

=)but as always, there are things that everyone has to be thankful for. thank God for bringing me through every training so far this holiday. im thankful for the comfort You gave me everytime i screwed up on the field, the strength u blessed me with when i really thought i couldnt move, and the joy when i finally got something right, even if it's just a small improvement=) most importantly, i thank You for bringing yan back into my life, even if it's just for this holiday. i was really really SO happy to spend the few days with him=)

everyone enjoy your hols~ spend it WISELY!! heh that advice shld go to myself too hees:)

bad day

ugh. today was easily the worst day ever in a million years. started off really good n fresh in the sunny morning BUT it had to be ruined by some asshole online. i know it was juz a joke but i was really damn annoyed n i wasnt the least amused.

and i went shopping with my mom. and she was SUPER unsupportive of me going overseas to do humanitarian work. WHY!!!! and then it started pouring heavily. this is the first time this year i'm REALLY shopping. i spent a damn lot of money today, or rather my mom haha. i tell u i'm a really BAD shopper. dont ever ask me out to shop with u coz i'm really impatient even shopping for my OWN clothes!! my mom was super efficient, she kept dumping pants after pants after blouse into the changing room! and i was quite annoyed coz i knew those shops cheated with their mirrors in the changing room. they just make u look slimmer but actually u look much fatter than what u see! hehe and i also did the check nana taught me to see if the mirror was REALLY a mirror or a fake one that is actually a glass wall. heh well if u see a gap between the mirror and the reflection when u put ur finger to the mirror, then it's real! hmm well at least i bought some clothes=) anw i hate heavy rains...it makes me lethargic and i felt like barfing on my way home.. and then i started to ponder bout things that didnt help.. made me feel even worse. i juz thought about how i'm really losing passion n interest in everything i'm doing. and how i get myself into things and messes that i regret. and that's why i do not enjoy doing the things i do even though they're the things that i want to do. owell i dunno what to do now.. i guess i'd have to begin offending people. ugh. right now my stomach feels REALLY funny and my teeth at the back of my mouth are ACHING! omgosh pls dont let it be gum decay or something! I BRUSH MY TEETH TWICE A DAY OK!!!!!!! and sometimes THRICE!!!! or could it be the wisdom tooth??!?!?! OH MAN..........................

i didnt know i wasnt supposed to believe in healing power of acupunctures??? i learnt this morning in st paul's that christians shouldnt believe in it coz that way u're not having 100% faith in God. i was puzzled and asked some of them during lunch and they said coz acupuncture (esp the sinseh kind) is based on the yin n yang believe and the 7 -dunnowhat- points in our body and that the head is the most holy part blahblah something like that. hahahh well i dunno what to think of it coz it DID help my mom!

hm decided not to go for the 10-day trip up m'sia during this hols with my cousins and their family. =( it's way too long and i hafta forgo lots of YC and AFUA stuffs for it. plus uh i need to do something bout my econs retest in january and MATHS. BLEAGH! BUT I REALLY NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh help. i need to get out of this cramped island for a while. maybe i'll join qianni's family for their hol if it's not imposing on them. coz it'll be a much shorter vacation say 4 days? or pray hard that my dad will be able to get tickets so we can visit my paternal grandparents and relatives in m'sia. i NEED to spend time with my ah ma and gonggong! miss them =( eh and i dun wanna regret not spending time with them while i still can.

byebye mt sinai

=)going to st paul's tmr morning! every week is so eventful i thought it was a month since i last went there! hmm well this has been a great last week in mt sinai! shall miss it loads, no doubt. but hehe as layming told me, it's great our batch gets to experience the best of both campuses! hahaha yep!! and after she said that, i wondered why in the world i was so sad! she said that it's been a great year at mt sinai and now we can look forward to life in the new campus! hahhahha tt's the way! -grin-

thursday night nana n i camped over in sch!! hahhah it was soooo retarded n sooooo fun! retarded coz we were like two little idiots lugging slping bags she borrowed frm the faction room hahhahh. it was the MOST exciting night in school ever!! we met the policemen wOOtz~~!! and they were both so nice!! i'm SO glad we didnt chicken out in the end! BLEAGH to all those who thought we'd be humji and decide to go home!!!

friday morning was extremely wonderful! haahahh despite me falling ill n having merely 2hrs of bad sleep:) the morning bath in sch at 6.30 was so refreshing coz it was sooooooo cold! the moment i on the tap i had goosebumps everywhere mwahah! and i felt really damn good the whole morning! was feeling down later coz the thought of never having lessons in mt sinai ever made me sad. hee well went over to my cousins' in the evening n stayed over there for the night:) n i felt so much better. i love slping on the sofa there coz when i look up n out of the window, i feel like i'm in heaven=) the view frm up there's marvellous! hmm and this morning, my aunt insisted my face was dirty forced 4294982374million facials on me and offered to uh shape my eyebrows hahhaha! well, it was damn painful but yea guess it looks neater now:) but my face feels funny and my brows are so painful im having a headache! hahhahahah=) uh wanyi hurry end ur Os leh we intend to go out for a midnight movie! (to celebrate end of ur Os AND AHEMAHEM MY BIRTHDAY!!!) hahhahah!

hey rach if u're reading this i'm really sorry bout not setting my priorities right n neglecting my health at the expense of training. *promise i'll put in my best effort.

names!

hahha everything really happens for a reason.

hee i dunno what i'm thinkin mann im going silly. hahah or maybe the thought happened for a reason too!! hhahah should i sit on it or should it do something abt it????

i was thinking about names on my way home, and i thought n realized somehow the meaning of people's names are part of their personality. well, it applies to QUITE a number of my friends, AND MYSELF! hahhaah:) my name means happy n peaceful=) perfect name! hahhah i wonder why i was so ashamed of it last time, but i think most kids shld have once been ashamed of their names? especially if it werent some exotic name. hahhhaa anyway back to my point, i think my name is an exact reflection of what i want in my life! and given what i know of myself, i am happy when i am peaceful, as in literally peaceful. i dont like crowds, i dont like being trapped in the middle of people chattering n talking i will get groggy, i know a good example! i cannot step into heeren. the moment i step in i get dizzy n a headache!! yep! so i thought maybe i am actually a quiet girl! haha so are you what everybody calls u?

God's Grace

The will of God will never take you,
where the grace of God cannot keep you,
hwere the arms of God cannot support you,
where the riches of God cannot supply your needs,
where the power of God cannot endow you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the Spirit of God cannot work through you,
where the wisdom of God cannot teach you,
where the army of God cannot protect you,
where the hands of God cannot mould you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the love of God cannot enfold you,
where the mercies of God cannot sustain you,
where the peace of God cannot calm your fears,
where the authority of God cannot overrule for you.

The will of God will never take you,
where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears,
where the Word of God cannot feed you,
where the miracles of God cannot be done for you,
where the omnipresence of God cannot find you.

Everything happens for a purpose.

We may not see the wisdom of it all now,
but trust and believe in the Lord
that everything is for the best.



-author unknown

the pastor's wife shared this poem during last sunday's service:) it means a lot to me.

=) i had a very wonderful day today!! met up with xiaoling in the afternoon~ hehehehe didnt get to catch a movie in the end.....but there're always THE VCDS!!!!! to save the day!! hahhahaha:):) we watched HERO and The Chicken Rice War! Hero was damn good. i loved all the colours and the cheorography. and i'm in love with chinese culture, it's too rich!
late morning at st paul's was great=) everyone there is sooo friendly! hahahah and i cant believe it was my first time playing a proper beat(albeit a super short one) on the drum set!! yep i really love the place=)

hahhah my mom and i were supposed to bake scones together tonight. but hahahahhaha she ended up doing most of it!! i helped by sampling to see if they were yummy enough! hahahhaha bum man me. coz i came home so late she couldnt wait so she just started without me:( heh

went for a Youth Challenge meeting today. i had a horrible headache and the meeting lasted SO LONG n the guy talked SO MUCH i was tired after 2 hrs. but i MUST SAY he's a really amazing man and he's so well experienced and connected! hahhahaha and HE'S DAMN FUNNY!!!!
hmm.. i really loved the East Timor video SO MUCH coz that was exactly what i've been DREAMING to do all the time!

oh n i must mention too that i was SO GLAD he did bring up the thing bout CIP being so dumb. haha k that wasn't the way he put it, but yea that's how i feel it is. i really dont like the way people help out of self interest, which is the wrong value that CIP promotes. the metro CIP prog in rj is a classic example. i overheard comments all over the place like, "hey let's do it! so damn easy to get points la! juz stand there n can slack also!" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh. i think it's just so saddening. i dont think cip's entirely bad coz those in need DO benefit anyway, they get donations and the elderly do get company too when students do their cip. just that most of it wasnt a sincere effort. i feel EXTREMELY uneasy when i have to ask for CIP points after providing my service. i just dont think it's right and though i know that i did enjoy myself so much and i lend a helping hand with my heart, i still feel self-centered. but the thing is, i need the points coz the system requires it =(
so ive decided im going to work hard at afua to promote the arts and get all my cip points from there. and other than that, i'm not getting any points coz it's really against what i believe. yea i hope everyone will give, care, and share from our hearts when we help others coz that's the spirit!!:)

beezieeefeezzieeee

heh actually i dont feel like using the comp at all, but i just dont feel like doing anything else at the moment:)

the week has been extremely hectic.. right from the moment i drag myself out of bed. notice i'm still DRAGGING myself out of bed? i still dont see anything THAT worthwhile sacrificing my beauty sleep for. i remembered i said that i shld learn to wake up in the morning and feel good about it HAHAH but noooo, not yet!!

this is the kinda week that is so packed and full of different activities that monday seemed like a month ago.

training has resumed n it's takin it's toll on my poor little muscles!! hahhah it's been aching since wednesday night. i had to think twice before turning on my side while sleeping:) mwahaha at least i'm feeling healthier now! oh and comp's coming up soon in less than a month's time!! hahah pretty exciting! coach told us to watch our diet. heh i've never done this kinda thing, like preparing so seriously for a competition that i actually have to WATCH MY DIET! hahahah but it sounds damn fun~ and i seriously have to start using some brains on the field...... heheheh

kz right now i just want OP to be over FASTFASTFAST! i'm glad that our grp's doing it SIX days earlier than our originally assigned date! blessing in disguise!! and i hope i wont freak out presenting in front of a sea of foreign faces!!!

n oh dear the something is back to bug me againnnnnnnn!!!!!! FREAK!!!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!