can somebody please read to me?

back to austerity. I prefer it like that - simple, unadorned. the possibilities of emptiness (:

my head is spinning. why do we read so much? the words are swimming before me. i love learning. but a life time of these prints? i'd be blind by 30 if i were an academic, so there won't be a lifetime of these prints. maybe my profs have bionic eyes.

i dunno why there is this frustration that's boiling beneath today. maybe it's just the monthly thing. because i cannot think of any plausible reason to explain it. i'm doing my best to not let it boil over because my dad will bear the brunt of it and he is doing nothing to deserve it and i will regret it when i go to bed tonight. ARGH wth is wrong? maybe jesus will swallow it up for me. soon please, i'm ready to kick my table.

hm so is this why they don't allow females to pilot commercial planes? is this why we are labeled the irrational uncontrollable and hence lesser half of the human race? what a joke, many men don't even know how to express their emotions, let alone handle it. they are as bad as the women are, if not worse.