oh wow.. the storm out there is really crazy. this is the first time here so high up witnessing such magnificent lightning! it's so brilliant and blinding and the whole sky jus turns pink and purple! and i'm damn scared i may get electricuted any moment mwahah. quite weird it's just lightning and REALLY insane thunder but it's just drizzling outside my window.. hmm.. till today im still unsure how lightning and thunder come about.

lookin out of my window watching the storm, and what else could i have thought about? all cuddly and cosy in my room, a fleeting morbid imagination of myself darting around the buildings but in the end i got struck by the lightning and died. haha so silly. but then again it isn't entirely impossible.. and then came another morbid and vivid imagination of myself running away from a fast looming spin ball but alas, i was cacooned by hurricane katrina.. and then i stopped there cos i dunno what happens after you're swept up. and then another very morbid thought that my mom could've been the one swept away and all i did was stand there helpless. i felt really stupid but now i think it's not cos it really happened. when it's real and it's happening to me i think i'd rather die first because my heart will be torn in uncontrollable anguish and disbelieve watching my loved ones dying like that.

which gets me thinkin about the stampede that killed hundreds in Iraq - all thanks to a rumour of a suicide bomber amongst them. when i read the headlines i literally couldn't close my mouth, and then i started laughing cos it was so ridiculous! it wasnt just ridiculous it was so tragically ridiculous because so many people died and because it was only the natural way that people react to such a situation. really and sadly we're truly animals. as much as i'd like to think myself an altruist, if i were in there i wouldn't have given a shit about any other people's lives save for my parents'. right now i think im really low as a human being. what are we even with the grace of God?

anw i popped by the library earlier and i found this book. i read the blurb and i discovered it almost perfectly parallels my maxine hong lit text (my favourite one of the six)! just that she's korean. i can't wait to dig into it.. gotta wait till the weekends before i can get hooked.

hmm.. the exam mood immediately and almost entirely faded with the lightning and thunder. 'tis feeling good:) cheers!